the first 21st bday i've celebrated.





HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIMIN!

celebration was at her house yesterday.











the only one doing the candid shot fer yixin.

if pics ar too small, look at flickr.

i'm loving this song till bits. and i'm still not used to people leaving w/o a single hinge of sign. but then again, they always say "people come and go and soon yur thoughts of that particular will be soon forgotten."

my legs ar aching from all the dancing i had yesterday... my oh my. now i'm facing the guilt. and i simply just can't seem to fall asleep. i need my breakfast.

and so cabin says i'm dumb and too protected. i'm only the top 10% of ngee ann but not ntu. sobs, i know i'm only lucky to squeeze into that ceritficate of merit and not have any chance fer direct second year entry to ntu. poor thing got hit by words of mr cabin again.

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves. You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't? You want to be with someone who's a success. A person with the right job, right family, right clothes... In fights, you love to debate and defend yourself. You logic prevails - or at least you'd like to think so. You have a hard time ending relationships, even if the other person says it's over.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

can't stop saying it's true true true.

You Are Likely a First Born

At your darkest moments, you feel guilty. At work and school, you do best when you're researching. When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often. In friendship, you are considerate and compromising. Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking. You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream.

The Birth Order Predictor

wow, another accurate predict.

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You give completely and unconditionally in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

argh, so true.

Your True Love Is a Cancer

Why you'll love a Cancer: Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt. Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up! Why a Cancer will love you: You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs. A fellow homebody, you know how make Cancer comfortable and at home with you.

What Sign Is Your True Love?

gawd, i dunch even know if i knew any cancer babies.

don't say i'm a fish monger. this ish a duper sexaye video fer ya. gawd.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oTRPfSu58Sg

and look at her yummy legs. i want!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i2p9Jp6dDk0

weeee... i was happy yesterday, cos i met to meet meiling and shunfoong. and some secondary seniors.

*i know bad quality pics makes one irritated. ahur but i only have one 1.3 MP phone camera. haa.



adolphus and me. gawd, can't believe he wore a tie.



this ish the reason you wear white to zouk.



aikwee or he prefers ray. my primary school classmate. you imagine the years. haa. 10 light years!



this ish blur but i lyke.



i love this guy though he's always grumbling about me this and that. shunfoong! he brings one to heaven and dumps you to hell next. urrrrrrrrr... irritating since secondary school. haa. (eeeks, i told you my face ish round and nobody believes me. now you see! i have the evidence!)

my new addiction and extra hinge of happiness.

ben and jerry's.

gawd, after reading a number of gorgeous ladies' blogs, i realised that mine has totally no context. eeeks, maybe it's time fer me to be chuck into NUS, burn my brains to remain in that ACE world and start bucking up on my language/EQ. i see a vast difference between nus and ntu students (i'm definitely not being bias). you'll see the difference between everything when i kick myself in.

*okay, but no, that's not my final decision yet.

damn, i dunch wanna be crowded by cheenas. i wanna talk and sound lyke one intellectual babe. gosh, i can't believe i'm actually dreaming.

and stop saying that i'm always idling at home. i need my time reading and thinking to make a good decision. and i'm gonna start revising, improving and upgrading. (which would make me even occupied during the day and yeah, i might not even get a job at all). that's how serious it's gonna be, afterall it's the time to make me, myself, my family and my friends proud.

i know this would me sound a little ****, but i found out that i'm gonna get my diploma in MERIT. wow, this ish making me fly with all the slacking thoughts i used to have.

yesterday while i was vexed about the decision making at 3 am, faidzil was there to help. thanks. it's been so long since i've last chatted with him. (faidzil's my secondary school classmate if you ar wondering.) and so he left this really good encouragement which amazes me.

medio melodi-chic mel says:
i gotta work lyke double hard than in nus.

buckyhannah@hotmail.com says:
work for it la..u are known for it

medio melodi-chic mel says:
known fer it?

medio melodi-chic mel says:
i dunch get you.

medio melodi-chic mel says:
haa.

buckyhannah@hotmail.com says:
for working hard to get wat u want la

buckyhannah@hotmail.com says:
u are known for that

buckyhannah@hotmail.com says:
since sec sch

medio melodi-chic mel says:
you mean i'm actually known fer working hard fer what i want.

medio melodi-chic mel says:
wow. i didn't knew tt.

anyway, he's going uwa, perth on 24th feb 2007 fer 5 years to get his double degree of geog/education. this ish simply amazing too. (*i'm recording this down as my reminder. haa.) and he says if i dare flunk uni, he's gonna smack my head when he's back from aussie. aha.

buckyhannah@hotmail.com says:
u will make a rite decision

buckyhannah@hotmail.com says:
but never regret ur decision

buckyhannah@hotmail.com says:
coz u must know everythin that happens, it happens good and for a reason

medio melodi-chic mel says:
yeah. tt i know..

buckyhannah@hotmail.com says:
but ahh dont half way drop out of school

buckyhannah@hotmail.com says:
i come back from aussie i smack ur head

thanks faidzil fer the encouragement and analysis. (=

give me a job. i'm in debts now. i just lost 2k fer my phd. i'm just soooo dumb.

i just found something very very new and attractive to tempt me over my decision. bleah and i'm not telling.

god knows how much i wanna study medicine but nah, i'm so far from it. i dunch have the money nor the chance. NUS or NTU? i'm still seriously deciding. though yiwei says it's all about yur own determination but i still doubt i could ace out fer honours in NUS. argh, being stupid and lack of confidence ish really making me go crazy.

i just woke up from my rare afternoon nap. and gawd, i was dreaming about me walking around "i dunno which neighbourhood" looking fer this guy/girl who did something wrong and fled home. the story focus ends up that my contacts tore and the police caught me with my friends running away (hell, i do not know why but yeah cos me and my friends do not believe that this guy/girl ish guilty) and in the mini van, i was trying to hard to explain reasons of why this person ish never guilty and why the childish police should believe in themselves (happens that this guy/girl was part of their force). but wait, seriously i don't recall them as police officers, let's just put them as one gang/force of i dunno which kind. omg, the sentinel. i think i'm just affected by the 3 rows of action thrillers i've caught lately. okies, thanks but no more of those movies.

i know it seems very very confusing now (i tried to pull it away by a new paragraph). but dreams ar lyke this most of the time. you dunch really get to clearly visualise the faces of them (you just felt who ish who and who and hur) and being able to remember 1/2 of it ish good enough.

ooooooh yeah, i also dreamt that this person illegally extended the food centre of a shopping mall's hours so that we get to have fresh and piping food right out of the oven with no crowd. but wait again, why the hell ish it illegal? haa. weird dreams.

and till now, i still believe dreams speaks and reminds you of yur sub-conscious thoughts. that's why i get really fed-up at times when they haunt me with matters and people i've tried my best not to be thinking of.

*fer that idiot who didn't care a inch where i went today. read. i doubt you do anyway.

girls gathering finally! w/o meiling though. cos she's dead tired from school work, let's spare her off the date. there was last minute changes of dinner's venue to suntec's buffet, cos i was darn hungry (meaning i haven't ate the whole day).



dinner was yummy as usual with my favourite mango pudding. king ish no longer there. if you did realise. *darn, why am i mentioning this fact.

esplanade again.
i had a hard time with photo impression and this ish the best i could give.



(gosh, i love my arms here. there's no inch of fats. omg!)

the countless times we spent with time flowing by,



from 14 to going 20s.



cos i heart you guys!











i decided to crop poor yan's face outta here cos i doubt she wants to be in.







weeeee............



look, i have a fat face here. okay, i admit it!

it's so hard to get 3 of us at our best shots. and i had a time trying to sqeeze yan between ade and me.



i love you girls. and it's lyke how yan says, "no matter how long we've been seperated, the feeling ish still so right and intact."

mei, we ar missing you!

*what yans says ish true. why should i allow my emotions and actions to be dearly affected by king when he doesn't feel a inch fer them.

i was looking through my dinner and dance pics and i felt that i'm beginning to look lyke my mummy. brewks. i dunch wanna that to happen. haa. i have this NUS session tomorrow at 10 AM and i'm still considering if i should attend. you know how deadly it ish to be out alone? total sadness.

daddy has been really understanding with me these days and he calls me a "party girl" now. he allows me to go to bangkok with my friends, he calls and knows that i'm in MOS, he calls the next day and ask if i had fun. and he tells me, dunch expect someone to protect you, you have to acknowledge what you're doing and know how to protect yurself. omg, daddy ish becoming my only male source of support now. urrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.................... sweet.

and i wanna be blissful once again.

yeah, i'm back. early in the morning again. aha, clubbing that's it. perhaps only the close ones understands why i've been clubbing tons lately. but i'm beginning to enjoy dancing. and ps, i do not dance with strangers. (perhaps one day when i really lose everything?) till now, i've only enjoyed dancing with 1 particular. and nah, i'll never wanna drink again. that bourbon coke yesterday was discusting. phuture has all the rude guys and i dunch welcome them. yucks, they place their arms around yur waist without the basic courtesy of saying hi!, perhaps i'm just not used to it. but eeeks, i never wanna it to happen again. i hate phuture dance floor. the music's good though.

attica ish one very english club with no one dancing. MOS on thursday ish costly but lovely! cos DJ tang ish always there and i love the main arena with R & B. the crowd was a lil bad though. you can clearly see those guys loitering around and targetting on girls. and it's the same old gang over and over again. and in this era, it's no longer the guys hitting on girls. it's the girls hitting on them. omg. freaking interesting!

okies dokies, i'm gonna have my black pepper chicken chop now. bye!

ooooh, and please vote fer my dear friend cum clubbing khaki. mr PASIR RIS.

http://www.mistersingapore.org/mistersingapore/Contestants/contestants.htm

thanks!