i bought my mango top today!! and i've yet more to purchase. saw this purple candy stripe hat at fourskin today. looks really cool on me and i perfectly love it. nokia 7200 ish not that bad after all. small and handy. perhaps it might help me change all my mind. but money ish the most important factor. guess i better start earning before i begin day dreaming.

did charity work today but i wasn't the one who sold lilies. there were too many volunteers and they told us to give out pamplets. had a fun day today. everything was so cranky and laughter filled me and darling's heart.

today i met someone i would really lyke to meet. although i didn't really caught his words... but he hurt my heart...

anyway, i went shopping today... saw this pink hat i wanna buy but guess the color ish a little too bright. but i love it! so hip man!! it's lyke the lastest fashion now.

spring time ish here and all those clothes seem so lively. gonna get myself this top from mango. mum ish gonna sponsor me fer it. i'm damn broke now and i want to keep shopping. it's been ages since i last shop.

what's the stupid craze with those poka dots and ribbons all found ion those dreamy land clothes hanging around the shops in far east. it's lyke so baa baa black sheep childish style.

My Love Attitude

You tend to be loyal, dedicated and good-hearted. You're one of the most diligent students when you really try, and you tend to make your schoolwork a priority. You also express those same qualities in your love relationship. No one is more faithful and trusting than you. In fact, those tendencies can be a little negative in your romantic life. It give you the respect and love you deserve. You can be stubborn and a bit of a troublemaker if the mood strikes you but you can usually dig yourself out of that hole just in time to stay out of major trouble. You usually fall for extremes when choosing a love mate - he/she is good-looking, too, but that's not a major consideration for you.

*Taken from a love attitude test...

Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly

When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul


When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Yeah...
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know

You'll make it
You'll make it
Just don't go forsaking yourself
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall

help me... help me... help me...

gosh, i'm damn the hell not being myself fer this past few days... weak and weak. my temper goes way up high and it keeps hanging up there fer no reason. why? guess i just need myself.

too lazy to blog... to lazy to blog...
too many assignments due and the stupid fever ish driving me crazy at the wrong time.

i caught the eye 2 with darling on thursday. man, the crowd ish huge. why? hate all the squeezing with those young little ones during school holidays. the eye 2? nothing much to comment but the sound effect ish really scary. you may be closing your eyes but the sound will definitely still freak you out. i miss most parts of the show just by being a tiny timid cat.

so glad my sisters ar posted to ngee ann.. finally it's time we can meet. but i'm afraid of time table clashes plus i'm having 27 hrs per week next semester. life ish getting more and more hectic. i guess nobody lykes the feeling of being tied up by schoolwork!!

think i'm getting this new phone... looks perfect fer me. just hope there ar sufficient functions.! why can't all flip-phones with digital camera be as small lyke this? why can't all phones has the functions of sony ericsson?



or this? but it seems a little bulky and definitely doesn't look lyke a phone. i would rather reject their 3G service. functions of this phone ish superb!

Careless mistakes everywhere... This ish really sucky. Makes my mood down............................................

it has been a week and 8 days since i last blog... so long yet nothing to blog about. reason being : lazy and 'super' not in the mood to blog... craze!! anyway my laptop has been with darling fer weeks so i'm unable to blog with my stupid keyboard plug into my com. argh, cut off with all those craps. last week was common test week. totally gonna drop in the sink with my IPC paper. hope i'll still manage to get a A grade. will report my results to all as soon as i get those papers back.

IPC practical - 38.5 over 40 (Muacks!)
IPC - 82.5 (Freaky#)
Maths - 88 (Careless Creeps*)
Mircobiology - 87 (LaLaLa)

Woo hoo...... Today i went out in the late evening to celebrate adel's birthday.

I brought along ah gu and darling... I guess it's not a bad gathering after all, although it's so last minute stuffs. We brought adel to 'Spageddies' (i wonder if my spelling ish wrong) at paragon fer our dinner. The food there ish not bad. moderate shop which you guys can go ahead and try.


Adel munch this into her stomach... Heard it's really nice from her.


Ah Gu prefer something simple... He actually wanted pork chops... But eventually was stopped by us. Cos' we all think it's so silly... Darling even reccomended to bring him to the nearby coffeeshop for one 5 bucks instead of $18.50.


Darling and i shared this enormous seafood pasta... Quite tasty and definitely filling... But a little too sour and too much garlic plus discusting onions...


Ahuh... I got something sweet fer adel!!


2 T-strings from Topshop... Real nice and cute. Just nice fer girls lyke her.

i guess i really can't work well in the morning... or perhaps afternoon. i woke up near 12 noon today. all i wanted was to complete my ipc tutorials. but i spend lyke 5 hours till 4 plus... it's so hell pathetic. it's just 2 tutorials with around 15 questions... argh! i guess i have to blame it on myself. i didn't concentrate well enough, was watching tv and eating all the way... i need more productive work mel! worst still, tomorrow's tutorial has been cancelled... which means i wasted 5 hours slogging over this stupid worksheets.

talking about last night... that yan fell into deep sleep and totally forgotten about me. luckily i had something to do... hope this ish her last time.

*anybody has the software CM?

kkays... i'm waiting fer yan to call since an hour ago... dear yan, what ar you doing? it's 3 am now. my laptop ish finally ready. will be blogging with it now and then. next week ish study week. i'm not doing much studies after all. i'll be only having 2 tests going on. maths and chemistry. basic ones... just hope i don't make foolish mistakes.

i spend my whole day at home. darling went ubin. he did called me along, but you guys should know... i'm never going there. i don't really lyke cycling there although people always tell me it's really relaxing... but nah, i'm not interested and yes, i hate being the one fer letting you people worry. especially when there ar slopes everywhere.

guess i'm gonna be slogging at home tomorrow again. hope i can be patience with my work. haa. study hard mel!

I Promise
by Stacie Orrico

Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I take tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Yeah
And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you (there for you)
I promise

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

And I promise (and I promise)
I promise (oh I promise you)
I will be there when you call me (when you call me)
I promise (I promise)
I promise I will

i'm done with the new colour theme... the love in the air ish so high... hee. hope you guys lyke it! (= will blog soon... (that ish once i get my laptop repaired!!)

oh no, oh no...! darling ish too sweet le... it's my first valentine's with him and i'll keep in memory ferever... although there's no sunflowers fer me... but the gifts he gave was too much a surprise...

we went out today of cos'... first we went fer a movie 'along came polly' in ps... great love comedy. makes the mood of love in the air so high... next we walk and shop to wistma fer our dinner at jack's place. and at that moment i started recieving all those gifts one by one... darling wrote a 'me to you' card to me. the contents were perfectly romantic. cos darling has never been this romantic before. i'm definitely touched by his words... love him so much my dear. my next gift was nicely wrapped in a box with slivery ribbons on it. inside it, was a sony digital radio reciever... it looks too cool. darling bought fer me this nice bracelet from perlini's silver. he got me a ring too. it's part of a couple set. lastly, a diamond and white gold pendant from goldheart jewelry!! love it so much. it's heart shaped and can't believe darling really bought it. just becos i said i lyke it once before. i can't even remember myself pointing to that and telling him that's nice! and it's the first time recieving diamond from someone... not saying the guy i spend my life with everyday. my lovely darling ish so sweet. his charm and love fer me never ends.... muacks. thanks alot darling!

i guess i took almost ages to blog this... but you can't blame me. i'm getting really lazy and slacking all th way. thanks to those holidays and open house... it just allows me to stop stretching my back anymore. mel ish really piglet after all. but i used to weigh 49 kg and now? 46 le!!! argh... why am i losing weight? i didn't did it on purpose. i swear! just few days of exercising and i'm left just bones. haa... so crappy, i'm gonna stop here. this stupid keyboard ish getting me crazy. i hate typing these days!

long time... i didn't blog... my mind still in blank... still stuck in the mood with school's shedule... will blog if there's something to tell...

darling ish not back from malaysia and worst of all... he can't be found. i've been lyke looking fer him since afternoon. where ish my precious?

yesterday, i turned up in school fer one stupid lesson. cos nobody was informed about the cancelation of the other tutorial. gosh, i woke up so early just fer this. felt so silly. nonetheless, i managed to find something else to do. 'a visit to darling's lecture'. 74 was really draggy. i waited fer almost half an hour. but luckily i met shunfoong. finally!! it's been so long since i last met him. miss him lots. had a nice chat with him. too bad he's not going the same route as i. he said many pleasant stuffs to me and i appreciate it alot. just hope he isn't lying. haa! (= right? foong?

hmmm, blah blah blah. and i landed in darling's lecture hall. hmmm, their lecture hall ish really nice. compared to the one in np. but i don't really lyke the atmosphere there. i guess it's too formal fer me. after the nonsense in sp, darling and i had macdonals. nothing much to eat there but we had a full meal. i went home to sleep right after seperating with darling.

then... it's reunion dinner's time. with dad around, everything ish so un-reasonable. he keeps complaining and shouting. i know he ish intentionally refering to me. but i don't care. (have been so sad about his attitude these days. hate it when he said darling ish a idle. gosh, what does he expect darling to do when darling sees him in work. he said darling gave no respect to him. so does it means, darling should call him 'uncle' during work?) forget about everything. i still had a nice time talking to grandma and grandpa. dinner with abalone... hee, love it. actually it doesn't taste really nice. but just the thoughts of it makes my mouth watering...

after dad and grandparents left. darling came over to 'bai nian'. mum was happy to see him here. we also had a great time playing with my brother. we played childish games lyke heart attack and sparkles. after the gathering at my house, we went fer a walk downstairs. we bought alcoholic drinks at 7 eleven... hmmm, i didn't drank much. darling drank most of it and he was nearly drunk. actually he ish lyke playing around with me. but i don't lyke it. cos it's so not darling anymore. haa, he ended up really kinda drunk. i sent him off the bus... couldn't bare to let him off. hee. but he ish now in malaysia celebrating in his grandmother house. think he ish enjoying himself. i can't wait to hear his voice soon. can't wait to see him smiling at me. can't wait to give me a big hug. can't wait to tell him i'm missing him...

enough of all mushy stuffs... think it's time fer me to sleep. tomorrow, i shall be taking ang baos!! hope it won't be boring... happy new year to everybody!!

gosh, this stupid keyboard ish giving me a hell of problems... my 'M' & 'E' ish lyke so stuck. i can't really type them out. i have to lyke use violence. but worst, they ar not the only ones... think it's time i get this keyboard thrown. school ish fine. maybe it's much easier compared to last semester but definitely more boring. i had sport and wellness today. it's quite fun but tiring. with all that running... i love the part to catch. yeah, balls. i chose softball fer my S&W. oral com ish scary. 5 mins to think of what to speak and you're up next! your heart goes tumbling and yur mind goes into blank. it's lyke you can't really focus well and whatever comes into yur mind ar just spat out. so please have a great general knowledge and vocab.