long time... i didn't blog... my mind still in blank... still stuck in the mood with school's shedule... will blog if there's something to tell...

darling ish not back from malaysia and worst of all... he can't be found. i've been lyke looking fer him since afternoon. where ish my precious?

yesterday, i turned up in school fer one stupid lesson. cos nobody was informed about the cancelation of the other tutorial. gosh, i woke up so early just fer this. felt so silly. nonetheless, i managed to find something else to do. 'a visit to darling's lecture'. 74 was really draggy. i waited fer almost half an hour. but luckily i met shunfoong. finally!! it's been so long since i last met him. miss him lots. had a nice chat with him. too bad he's not going the same route as i. he said many pleasant stuffs to me and i appreciate it alot. just hope he isn't lying. haa! (= right? foong?

hmmm, blah blah blah. and i landed in darling's lecture hall. hmmm, their lecture hall ish really nice. compared to the one in np. but i don't really lyke the atmosphere there. i guess it's too formal fer me. after the nonsense in sp, darling and i had macdonals. nothing much to eat there but we had a full meal. i went home to sleep right after seperating with darling.

then... it's reunion dinner's time. with dad around, everything ish so un-reasonable. he keeps complaining and shouting. i know he ish intentionally refering to me. but i don't care. (have been so sad about his attitude these days. hate it when he said darling ish a idle. gosh, what does he expect darling to do when darling sees him in work. he said darling gave no respect to him. so does it means, darling should call him 'uncle' during work?) forget about everything. i still had a nice time talking to grandma and grandpa. dinner with abalone... hee, love it. actually it doesn't taste really nice. but just the thoughts of it makes my mouth watering...

after dad and grandparents left. darling came over to 'bai nian'. mum was happy to see him here. we also had a great time playing with my brother. we played childish games lyke heart attack and sparkles. after the gathering at my house, we went fer a walk downstairs. we bought alcoholic drinks at 7 eleven... hmmm, i didn't drank much. darling drank most of it and he was nearly drunk. actually he ish lyke playing around with me. but i don't lyke it. cos it's so not darling anymore. haa, he ended up really kinda drunk. i sent him off the bus... couldn't bare to let him off. hee. but he ish now in malaysia celebrating in his grandmother house. think he ish enjoying himself. i can't wait to hear his voice soon. can't wait to see him smiling at me. can't wait to give me a big hug. can't wait to tell him i'm missing him...

enough of all mushy stuffs... think it's time fer me to sleep. tomorrow, i shall be taking ang baos!! hope it won't be boring... happy new year to everybody!!

gosh, this stupid keyboard ish giving me a hell of problems... my 'M' & 'E' ish lyke so stuck. i can't really type them out. i have to lyke use violence. but worst, they ar not the only ones... think it's time i get this keyboard thrown. school ish fine. maybe it's much easier compared to last semester but definitely more boring. i had sport and wellness today. it's quite fun but tiring. with all that running... i love the part to catch. yeah, balls. i chose softball fer my S&W. oral com ish scary. 5 mins to think of what to speak and you're up next! your heart goes tumbling and yur mind goes into blank. it's lyke you can't really focus well and whatever comes into yur mind ar just spat out. so please have a great general knowledge and vocab.

the doctor gave me a huge shock today. luckily it's all not happening. i've been having tummy aches on and off since saturday. last night, i couldn't put myself to sleep at all and i rest at only 4am in the morning. my eyes went blood shot right when i woke up at 6 plus in the morning. can't imagine myself falling asleep in lectures. although i managed to survive fer that 5 hours of lectures, but i'm pretty sure i'm caught eyes-shut. oh, about the doctor. he examined me and later suggested fer a urinal test. he said he wanted to check my kidney. he said that there might be chances of stones or infection. i was lyke, ah.... i'm dead. further test prove that it's just food poisoning...

wanna say thanks to yahui, bean and darling... made my day seem a belated brithday celebration. seems lyke i can't do rebonding or spa perm fer this moment of time, all thanks to my stupid bleached hair. but it doesn't matter cos bean got me that geometrics 8 in 1 multi-styler. finally it's here. i actually went westmall this evening to get it myself but i met bean. called him to accompany me in but i didn't expect him to pay fer me too. so 'bu hao yi shi'! first ish yahui then him. yahui, my poly classmate paid fer my movie tickets. caught mona lisa smile today. kinda filled with all those women determination and the changes from traditional rules to modern 'free' lifestyle fer them. by the way, i've got a slight trim on my hair today. i definitely feel lighter... lesser burden too. haa.

i'm playing with dad's new e700 now... think perhaps i'm not getting it anymore. cos the functions ar not those i really fancy. in fact, after using darling's s200 fer 2 days, i find that phone much easier and interesting to use. despite the lack of camera functions. maybe i should think of another handphone to get fer myself... phone designs suxs nowadays. how i wish it could be better if i could choose my own design, my designated functions and everything ish so customized! that would be wonderful...

wah... the day of schooling has began and soon i'll lose all that glow i had during holidays. my time table ish a little distorted but i don't care. things will never be the way you actually wanted. just hope fer a quick semester ahead. first day of school and i have a huge time slot of lectures. busy, busy, busy... many holidays ar coming soon but there must be make-up lessons fer them... i would rather skip the holidays cos' make-up lessons ar hard to generate, all thanks to those messy IS modules. making my classmates and i limble here and there... nonetheless, i'll just hope fer more beauty sleep... haa!

i'm feeling real bad now. i wanna cry but i can't. why? i'm so force to a corner and my feelings ar all kept within.. dad ish at home now and i can't do anything. going out ish a crime, staying home ish a torture. nobody understands this confusion going on in my heart and most importantly he don't. why? why after all the things he have said, he does nothing. at least nothing to prove his heart. sometimes i just wanna tell him that there's no use of reprimanding himself when he knows something ish wrong. i hope he ish able to learn ways to change to situation. i always love to ask myself. am i asking too much? do i complete my own part? maybe love ish selfish. especially when a couple starts quarrelling. all those stupid blabbering noises began. you never know how words can hurt until this time. it cuts deep into yur heart and it bleeds. breathing ish such a difficulty. reading a love novel ish as easy but handling one ish never...

i hate holidays man! all thanks to dad. i'm not allowed to work. i'm questioned if i spend my own allowance. i'm lyke so totally grounded everytime he ish back home. with that stupid door opened fer him, i hear him asking about this and that. so demanding, forever lyke this. got a darker colour fer my hair and yet he starts blabbering about it again and again. why can't i keep my hair long? crazy! would someone's dad go round and round bothering about their daughter own hairstyle? it's my own problem... he keeps asking me to do something to my hair. "cut it cut it!" that's what he'll say. sick and tired of it. i hear this everytime... i want my hair long or short, straightened or curly... that's my business. if only... i dare. i give him a bald! it's not lyke i go around him and critising his hairstyle too. craze....

kkays... i'm planning to get myself the samsung e700 but i still need to wait fer the price to drop. dad doesn't want to spend such money now. hmmm, my wishlist ish finally going to clear off all so soon. hee. and thanks my sistas and my perfect darling, they gave me a sunny birthday. love them lots... darling got me a swatch watch and yan+adel got me a 4 in 1 hair styling set.

i guess i'm gonna spend the following few days left to sleep as much as i can. don't call me a pig. i just don't wanna regret when school reopens. the kinda of sleepy moments in lecture. gosh, i hate it.

i guess i'm getting real fickle minded... i saw panasonic x70 today. looks great to me too.



which one shld i buy? any suggestions?

went out exercising with darling just now... we cycle and ran around our neighbourhood. played soccer, basketball and childhood games with my brother too... was having real fun stretching out our muscles. early this morning i'm lyke so stuck with the computer. all thanks to my brother. he kept perstering me to play this 'prince of qin' game fer him. i started out 11 and only stop at 7pm. gosh... my eyes hurts lots. can't imagine how guys can get so engrossed with games.

oh yeah... and regarding computer games. i saw this true file story on television today. most teenages murder due to long term effect from computer games. meaning they usually gets too hooked up and by then can't differeniate reailty... hence, they starting looking fer predators, murder them fer the sake of fun. this ish real scary and crazy man...

i'm gonna get myself Samsung e700a... birthday coming soon but ain't really excited about it. anybody wanna give some ang bao money fer my new phone? geesh... (=

gosh... i'm feeling real vexed now. all that anger in me, i just can't seem to control it! my head ish lyke spinning real fast. there's many things i hate about myself and i throughly can't give myself more confidence. perhaps i'm too isolated... argh, but i don't bother. there's so many bad thoughts flying inside my mind. don't come near me or i'll be one mean baddie. hope this craze of mine ends soon. just another day of stupid mood swing. sometimes i just hope that people around could understand me... less questions and more answers please!

Today ish darling's birthday... Me got him his favourite skin chrono Swatch watch. Finlly my wishlist ish clearing to more than half.

Sometimes i'm just too lazy to blog... Let time determine whether i shld blog about my trip to Thailand... Got many many stuffs. I'm a little tire out and don't have the strength to just keep typing anymore. Feeling totally in the blues, just hope everything will be fine soon.

hey peeps... me going thailand until this saturday night. i won't be updating my blog during these 4 days. do miss me kkays? haa. (=

Lee Huay Er Melissa was a Polite Postal Worker in a past life. Discover your past lives @ Quiz Me

Melissa Lee Huay Er was a Pleasant Postal Worker in a past life. Discover your past lives @ Quiz Me

Today ish our 6 months of treasure... I got darling this shirt which i thought was real nice as a present.

We went Far East Plaza first... Darling planning to get a track sweater there and it's really cool. A super look alike from Adidas. And yups, we gonna share the jacket! Then, we took neo-prints again. Forever the same... Here ar some of my favourites.



I really lyke this one... Real Style! Lyke some kind of models!! Oops. Hee... (=

Then we went wistma... I match a real smart and style suit fer darling at Topman. Darling turns out beyond what i expected. If only he ish taller and he will look real neat and attractive in those clothes. Shop, shop, shop and we ended up in Takashimaya. Darling bought me the 'Me To You' that i fancy as a present. Was so delighted about it and we decided to name it 'Ang Bei Bei'!! Haa.

Walk, walk, walk and we reach Plaza Singpura. Glaze around until it was finally night time. I mean dinner time! We went to the glass house fer Fish and Co. Finally we got the chance! I mean we have lyke plan this long time ago... So tata, we ordered Seafood Platter Fer Two And A Jungle Freeze. Everything seems to be in so large quantity!!
Oh ya... After dinner, darling got me fresh flowers. How sweet of him! It's the first time i recieve flowers from him. What a day filled of wonderful surprises!!

That's all fer the day... And two last pictures fer the special day!!

The rest could be found here... My New Photo Folder 3

Love Me Tonight!

Yeah! It's our 6 months together le... We've lyke gone through half a year of everything... Love him lots... And i know he love me lots too... Hee... Darling!




From Me To You, Specially... I Had Always Tried To Give Ya All The Romance I Could In Words... But Now I Know... Nothing Means More Than Actions And The Eye To Eye Signal... Telling You That I'm Gonna Be The One... That Special One You Need... Love Ya Lots, My Darling...