i had problems blogging.

i dunch know why but i just simply can't log into the page of a new post. irritating. i had to take some useless post i published originally and edit the date (so it would come out as a new post.)

Adeline's 21st!! Happy birthday girl, you have been this really precious part of my life and will continue to be forever till we have pinics together... i love you baby.





her cake.



the present we got her. oh yeah, we even got her a piece of sexy lingerie initially.

candid shots from yan.







the birthday girl.



meiling!



qiyan.





sucha blur pic.



daisy. she was my flute partner fer quite sometime during YI days.



the infamous boy.



the 4 sisters!!





i think this giant makes me look short and bloated. dots.



see what i meant?



me with ma heels towering over adel. haa.

i had a long busy day. was at simlim in the afternoon, river valley road next, collin's gathering at his friend's place, round and round in jurong, vivo, then to adel's place, and cafe del mar after. ma feet hurt so badly with those new heels. was walking barefooted after cafe del mar.





i'd say it's a lovely place to chill.

blissful*

i hate writing things on the blog. it merely means keeping them as a memory and removing them from reality.

the 2nd day of cny, i had quite a day entertaining guests.



our generation of cousins.





my younger cousin. she looks preety here!

ma old room!

and the study table...

became

ma old bed,

turn into one cozy daybed!

absolutely love this from robinsons.

he's still the painter of my life. thanks fer the rainbows.

just got home catching pro-te-ge. caught the flu virus and i'm having difficulty breathing now.

*i used to be always there fer ya but i'm now no longer able to.

what's with blogger these days? ma post ain't coming up right after i @!#@!$ them. damn.

reunion dinner was the usual. i had 1 whole abalone alone this time though. blood bleeded twice today, ma poor finger. caught follow the laws and i say it's the hilarious cny routine! i'm going to be a mugger tml.

i'm near penniless. shopping with gfs. got two BLACK tops today, 1 freshlook contact lenses, spree fer 1 white/gold top last night.

mum ish going to scramble me all over tomorrow morning if she finds out that everything ish black and that includes my heels. wanted to get this lovely white heels today but they always run out of my size. damn!

so this piggy year, i'm having new black tops, black dress, black heels, black necklace, black bag.

baby kept telling me that we're just afraid to wear red and to think about it, maybe now when i'm so in love with grey, gold, black, royal blue.

but forget abt it, i think i'm so matching to my room! afterall i'm spending the whole cny at home this year. what the heck.

mummy ish cute today. she said 'waah, the auntie so hao xin. delivered the package up.' and so i replied her, 'mum, i paid 2.20 fer that hao xin you're talking about.'

no more buying after this cny! i'm so waiting fer my dkny bedelicious. hais. people gonna have new fragrance fer cny but i'm still stuck with my issey miyake (though i'm still totally in love with it and i still have another new 100ml).

oh yeah, had dian xin at imperal treasure today. treat from the birthday boy. thanks alot. but it reminds me of the blue cheese steak. can't stop laughing over that waitress who kept calling, alex! supa personalized service, you kantang.

he wrote me a letter and dedicated a song. ah touched*

Hold on, little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up, little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blue
Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
Wake up, who cares about
Little boys that talk too much?
I seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blue
Just to be the next to be with you

Why be alone
When we can be together, baby?
You can make my life worthwhile
And I can make you start to smile

When it's through, it's through
Fate twist for both of you
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold...

if you ar wondering how my vday was spent, i would say it ain't good. i was rushing my book review the previous night. slept fer less than 3 hours, woke up fer my presentation, school till 9pm and the rest, i shan't comment about the rest. seriously, i wasn't expecting a thing but as simple as it was, i didn't felt that it went right, and i ended up being 'childish' (i still didn't thought i was childish, i just wanted to sleep in peace.) with one vodka to end the misery in bed.

and what concludes vday? that i'm not understanding enough. i know i know. maybe not now, not when the effort cannot be visualise.

ma confidence ish just left down the drain.

5.51pm* gawd, and i'm trying hard to breathe now.

sometimes spending yur 100% effort to do something might result in just 10% of mere fullfillment.

i regret spending moolahs on worthless people.

the ideal vday gift.



Swarovski I Love You
Clear crystal bear with Jet crystal eyes and nose; balloon in Kakadu Red crystal.

i've never been interested in crystals. but this lovely kirs bear caught my eye the other time i went shopping with collin and cabin. lovely!

this ish fer someone special.

no cny clothes and cashless. birthday gifts pounding on ma poor bank account. money all spent on the room, leaving me fat and ugly fer cny. so tell me now, how's cny gonna be? disastrous i bet.

after cny, i'm determined to

1) start my jogging routine. i wanna lose weight so badly. go down to 42kg and the next thing someone's ever gonna tell me ish 'mel, you've SLIM down!' and 'skinny, i lyke'. the 2nd one was just less than a month ago, but i think i need more.

2) have someone to spell things out to me.

3) lose weight.

4) lose weight.

5) and lose weight!

lost in self confidence...

who wants to go on an urban history walk of singapore tomorrow? you're jolly welcome to give me a call. i'm really tired. i guess i need the rest.

caught half nelson last night with alex. i didn't tot it was as good as it's rating. you know times when you expected more and got lesser. but the show was its peak just with its monotonous tune.

but why half nelson?*

ish it not enjoyable anymore or it's because i'm not allowed to?

the matrimony with yan last night. i wouldn't say it's darn freaky cos' most of the time... as you might have expected, we were basically watching with our eyes covered. but i guess if you stare blank into the screen, there's 80% chances you'll scream lyke hell. cos that's what we did.

zara's new collection ish totally yummy.

i'm struggling cos you finally made me realise how significant i wasn't. i knew i was stuck in a packed of lies, but then again, it's constitutes to how much i just want to live in ma comfort zone. i wasn't willing to have someone telling me that what i've preciously given was just bullshit to another. it comes back empty handed and that feeling sucks. i'm really tired of thinking who does what and fer whatever motives. i tot i knew clearly of one but yet foolishly accepting all the frauds. let's just keep it as a neat pack of memoirs and life continues normally from now on.

i wanna catch half nelson. and i know there's only one person interested in this film.

i'm a good girl. i've just finish reading through biochem notes. hrmp, and i'm still waiting fer the webcastS to be out. patience running out. thurs and fri went past lyke one breeze, the freedom of a long weekend.

the room just needs 4 more mirrors, frames up, new dustbin.

still wondering abt my curtains. hrmp...

ma room ish filled with mirrors now. lovely...

i was telling collin, share a gift and give me a nose job voucher on my 21st. thankew. i'm superficial and i want ma new nose.

i dunch wanna drift away from my friends.

no, the top ish not blue! it's grey. but i'm falling in love with the blue.

loves the bag i got yesterday at icon. especially when it's duper worth it.

someone really important said something with great importance today and yes, i'll treasure fer whatever ish said.

it's 15 mins to 4am, i'm turning in soon. had a pretty productive weekend with school work. though someone says that's not even considered, it's not mugging but just doing what you suppose to do. fine fine fine, i know we see things at a different light. darn, i'm pressured on and off even if i'm not in school.

Muse - Starlight

Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

Starlight
I will be chasing the starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

But I'll never let you go
If you promised not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

And I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms
I just wanted to hold

it's lyke 3 but i'm just done with the clearing up of my wardrobe. argh!

i think i was too overwhelmed by one thing and shadowed the other.

sneak previews of the room!



love that postcard i got from bangkie!

and mr and ms lexie ish there.

rose from collin.

and yoz, the 3 whites! the 3 gree ish coming too. soon*



e working space.



lovely bed! once again, it's not the cage!



there's just this big difference in my room now. can't stand it! faints*

my room ish almost complete. i'm left with the cupboard, 3 sets of boxes, 1 pencil holder, 2 more photo frames, photos, dustbin, 3M sticks, 1 bedset+comforter, 2 more pillows + 1 huge one, new curtains and waah laaa... yups, and perhaps one really good freshener fer the room. and there i have a really yummy room. but i gotta make another trip to ikea, marina square.

i'm sleeping on my lovely bed (not a cage* hrmps, alex.) tonight weee.!!

i think i didn't mention catching gridiron gang on last friday. a note to keep. hrmp*

my dreams they tell me, i'm so not ready.

i had a really really busy weekend. so much till i have to reject poor cabin twice fer shopping. rush midnight to bean's birthday on saturday night. today, painted the room and finally settled everything. and shit, i haven't got my biochemical tutorials done, marketing lecture read, and biodiversity practical report done. faints* i hope the room gets done asap and i can start studying. i have a seminar to attend tomorrow evening, a 600 page book to read. alright, time to sleep in that stinky and empty room of mine.



no, i'm not a fan of tt creature. but someone ish.



the auntie in me.

i know i'm playing dumb towards his affection and totally not being myself when i need to be. but it's superficial to love someone just because of his unknown TLC. if you ask me why am i blessed lyke out of the sudden, i have no single clue about it. things will change and soon, we'll find out how and why. if things go on the right track, i'll be able to settle things well tomorrow. just give me more time and courage.

i know i haven't been really recording what i've been doing and friends lyke you dunch really know where i've been and am i still moving on the right track? or was that just my wishful thinking? oops. i think i was emotionally lost fer a moment and blogging doesn't seem this necessary. i wouldn't say i'm back on track and there's still tanglement on and off. but i'll be fine, dunch worry. school ish fine and i can't wait fer SSD2213 lecture which ish happening in lyke 30 mins time? i'm stuck at this weird corner of some science block with no disturbance besides that buzzing sound from hell i dunch know what but it's alright, patience ish running through and providing me some peace.

back about being fine, i'm still masking every single day, skipping lectures because there's webcast, appreciating the attention of one particular, renovating thoughts revolving my mind every single hour, cash strapped with all the new textbooks, school ish still evil (haa.) but i absolutely love my timetable, daddy ish back (he got mum a louis vuitton handbag and me, a miserable watch which i concluded costs lyke the most of 5 USD, but lyke what one says it's at least the effort.)

yeah, fer this moment, i'm feeling lightened. i miss all my lovelies and this stinky place ish filled with mosquitoes. bye...

let me stay low fer awhile and learn to appreciate who's ought to be.

they say i'm this, he says i'm that, adds that i'm those, you say i'm lyke this. so tell me now, who the hell am i? my identity ish rouse up into sometime i can't figure out myself in.

but what's with blurting out things that i'm not. that i dunch appreciate yur kinda of life and whatever you say. it hurts and i dunch feel good at all.

absolutely missing that cute* lingerie i saw at vivo the other day.

i love my SSD2213 - Singapore Urban History and Architecture lyke crazy. it's by far the most interesting module i've taken. amazingly details of singapore. indeed influenced. and he knows the bits better than me. how lovely can this be?

drove to school with a last minute decision yesterday. sad to say, i'm pretty worn out just fer the first day of school. without any anticipation and stuck with numerous thoughts. i know i was pretty pissed off last night. but i know it's just me.

on a happier note, i think i'm officially kicking start school today with 10am to 9pm. i love myself and not school. bleah.

and please stop that undergraduate thing. i think i'm lyke undergraduate, yeah.

i'm learning to move on and i know hell, i will.

the problem of sleeping too early (3am) ish this! now, i'm stuck. awake with my lecture only starting at 4pm. dreadful. i never ever lyke waking up in the early morning. my limbs they seem numb, my body feels weak, and i feel lyke i'm drifting.

was looking fer furniture the past two days. did a great amount of purchase and decision making. the room would most likely be done a week after daddy ish back. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... lovelies. can't wait. everyone has been telling me that my concept ish way too rowdy. i'm cutting down a number of things. it should be fine by then. thanks collin fer driving me around. school's starting tomorrow at 4pm. faints*

He will call.



the usual wait* and lies to oneself. (picture taken from website stated)

school's starting and someone (ahem*) says i've been enjoying myself fer one whole month, that i'm been slacking, and i'm sick cos i partied way too much. bleah. there's no kick to school besides being stuck at home fer the past two weeks bidding modules. i've no classes on monday and if my ballot goes well on friday, i'll have supa long weekends (fri to mon) on certain weeks. but the lectures, tutorials ar at way disgusting timing till 6 or 7pm. rejoyce! cos there's no 8am lectures. on top of that, i have one lecture on wednesday 7 to 9pm, but loves fer that. i'm getting way influence.

i'm wrote the 16th fer you ma boy.*

hurt, bleeding, weak and sick.

it's the first time * gave * concern in sequence. loves.

was looking through the blog while on the phone and we were amazed how memories tagged. (or rather, i am. mi3 was the 2nd alright.)

yesterday was well spent. caught the planes finally, the skies cleared amazingly fast fer us, i counted lyke a million number of stars, the moonlight shone with tingles, the rest ar secrets fer me to keep.

there's always one night you wanna spend the time alone or with e company in silence and tonight might be just it.

*who's gonna play the rock tune fer me?

mOS, dj tang, empty smoove, lovely UK tunes, and let's skip the weeping on and off. you ar vunerable, you're simply hurt, you played a game you thought you could afford but got lost in it. to hell, i'm never going back to mOS fer no good reason. bad memoirs haunts.

the timing has just 1 meaning.*

blood diamond was good just lyke what yan says. i wept lyke thrice during the movie. yups, i'm just a emo baby. vivo gv max ish big but the seats ar not comparable to cathay. uh, misses.



the lovely xmas tree still stays.



there you go, the best picture fer the night.

the possesion of anything begins in the mind.*

*absolutely addicted to this tune. i should catch 2046 soon.

DJ Shadow - Six Days

At the starting of the week
and someone talks you hear them speak
It's only monday

Negotiations breaking down
see those leaders start to frown
and so did monday.
Tomorrow never comes until it's too late.

You could be sitting taking lunch
the news will hit you like a punch
It's only tuesday

You never thought we'd go to war
after all the things we say
it's april fools day.
Tomorrow never comes until it's too late,
tomorrow never comes until it's too late

You hear a whistling overhead
Are you alive or are you dead
it's only thursday

You feel the shaking of the ground
The feel of candles all around
is it your birthday.
Tomorrow never comes until it's too late,
tomorrow never comes until it's too late.

Make tomorrow come, I think it's too late

so the wishlist has been updated. there will be changes in a week's time. let's keep this fer memo i guess.

01* [/]A Good 06'
02* [F]Romance
03* [/]Ma Simple Bday Dinner
04* [S]Study Hard
05* [S]Healthy Lifestyle
06* [F]Lose Weight to 44 Kilos
07* [/]500 Bucks
08* [S]Europe Trip/Exchange
08* [S]Hongkong
09* [F]Ash Hair
10* [/]Issey Miyake
11* [/]Dresses
12* [ ]Fluffy 3/4 Skirts
13* [/]Jersey Tops
14* [/]Heels
15* [/]Watch
16* [ ]FCUK's
17* [ ]Belts
18* [/]Heart Necklace
19* [ ]Vichy/Galenic
20* [/]Memories To Last
21* [/]Gift To Be Out
22* [F]Being Blissful

so e slash means uhuh, F equates to failed and S = SOON!

when you say you've no money fer clothes. there goes the rest. faints*





my favourite. yummy!



a little pampering to feel good.

photobucket ish giving a lil trouble. it's free anyway, so darn it.

i'm sending daddy off to las vegas tonight (3am) and i'll have the car fer at least a week. so let's see hur, i hope i'll manage parking. if only lovely bmw stayed.

bakerzin's indulgence.

David Guetta Vs. The Egg - Love Don't Let Me Go (Walking Away)

baby, i miss dancing with you...

this ish duper cute laa...

yeah, enjoy 2007! lovelies.

surprisingly, i have nothing much to say fer 2007. this pause might take some time.

come, let's sit down and read a really boring story of mine.

someone please tell me it's not 7 in the morning and the birds ar still chirpping.

bye. but baby loves. alright, let's skip the birds still chirping part.

and so after lyke mere 3 hours of sleep, i went off to ikea. sip some of alex's tea w/o creamer (bleah) tired and found out the tampines outlet would be a more lovely place to shop.

bidded farewell and went to ps. met yan fer death note 2. the usual chats and walk to peninsular plaza.

got home after 7, recieved a surprise call from bean.

had dinner and rush off to meet collin. met meiling and thanks so much fer the earrings. caught both ends fireworks. and then it was a merry go round everywhere.

i've met and spent who i wanna be with fer the last bit of 2006. so how's 2007 gonna be lyke? who's gonna play the tune fer me?