blogger ish so slow today!

anyway, i'm so happy with what i got fer yixin's 21st. since she's stuck in her chalet now, i doubt she has any chance to read this entry. so waah laa... here's the present i got her.



red! my favourite color as fer now. haa.



some pictures of us fer memos. yahui ish sharing the gift with me.



necklace with all the keys. sadly, that's the amount of keys i can find.

talking about necklace, i just made myself a new one today again. and the inspiration comes from someone special.



tadaa, with photo inside. i won't say it's really nice. but it's at least meaningful.

my friends has been wondering the amount of necklaces i have and some others thinks that i change a necklace every single day. and here goes, my humble collection.



my favourite. i dunch know why.



2nd on the list!



i lost my orginal rainbow and finally found some hearts to replace the missing.



simple necklace.



vintage one. with a small oval locket too!

i have another one with keys and heart too.~

if you appreciate them, do let me know. i'll let you know the price. but it will not go below 20. maybe just 20 with normal postage. these charms doesn't come cheap.

anyway, here ar the additonal charms i'm selling.



price varies from 1 to 6.

so long, back to mugging mode. and 1 month from now. i'll continue holding on.

did i mention i'm very disappointed with myself? i got myself strike off an A even if i'm gonna score full marks fer stats exams. tad stupid.

Royksopp - Only This Moment

Only this moment
Holds us together
Close to perfection
Nothing else out there
No one to guide us
Lost in our senses
Deep down inside I know our love will die

Only this moment
Holds us together
Lost in confusion
Feelings are out there
Scared of devotion
Doubting intentions
Deep down inside I know our love will die

Stay or forever go
Play or you'll never know
What heaven decided
You can't deny it's
All you've been waiting for

Stay or forever go
Play or you'll never know
Your spirits divided
You will decide if I'm
All you've been waiting for

Clouds in my head have been parted with grace
By the voice of an angel revealing her face
and her words they make sense 'n' I do understand
Falling in love isn't part of a plan

Forces within me mix reason with lust, but
I'll try to accept it and not make it worse
'cause I know I might loose it by taking the chance,
(But) love without pain isn't really romance

Only this moment
Holds us together
Close to perfection
Nothing else out there
Always beside her
Trusting my senses
Deep down inside I know love will survive

Only this moment
Holds us together
Close to perfection
Nothing else out there
Always beside her
Trusting my senses
Deep down inside I know love will survive

mms://streaming.miaccess.com/mos/royksopp_onlythismoment_300k.wmv

says:
kid kenobe
says:
dj..
the mc is shureshock

everytime i catch the new episode of laguna beach 3, i feel that i'm stuck in one. so much fer watching sucha bimbo show. i love tessa and raquel though. they ar at least nice girls.

*it'll just never have a good ending.

no, i'm not done with stats but i need a break. (typing as records fer memos. you dunch have to read it if you ain't interested. but why ar you here in the first place?)

wednesday night - yan invited me to catch the premiere of death note. initally i tot it was another lame jap horror flick but it turn out really nice though the ending was as expected.

thursday - i woke up rejecting life. i was terrified with the amount of time i spent studying meaninglessly. i felt stupid and useless fer being clueless or near to nothing about organic chemistry and i refused to attend school. i dunch know why ish it affecting me so badly this time and i was on the verge of tears during tutorial. maybe because i still felt that no matter how hard i've tried grasping the module, it's never ending and killing me.

friday - i had a relaxing 1 hour of school and fled to town. caught little miss sunshine and it was light-hearted and funny at the same time. shop around and was really enjoying myself. got stuck at pull and bear the very last minute. and now alex claims it's my favourite shop. i dig the skinnies there! it's cheap and lovely. so tempted to get broke there and couldn't resist getting myself the red cardigan. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....... we spent the night at MOS. the first time i went there in nude. (makeup i meant + the oily and smelly hair) smoove was disgusting fer once and i didn't even spot DJ tang. the music was so bad and we spent 3/4 of our time sitting down, enjoying the main arena. i dunch recall the guest DJ and emcee but they were really good.

look at the huge disco ball. i dig!

our megawatt smile. (argh, look at how plain i was.)

*alright, back mugging. i feel the motivation coming back.! weeeeeeeeeeeeeee..... aja aja fighting!

i will blog later and post pictures when i finish stats later in the morning alright.

*i know some people ar unhappy with me and my decisions. maybe standing inside the circle makes 1 foolish and you know how much i'm laughing at myself.

*but i was happy just to be there. ish it illusional or?

who's unhappy and not motivated at all? me! why? cos organic chemistry ish seriously killing me. it's lyke going through sec 3 pure chemistry when i flunk every single test fer a year. will it turn out lyke o's where the hardwork gave me a A2? with this little amount of time. i doubt myself.

just paid 20 bucks to alter that fcuk shirt. the person who's gonna recieve it better give me a big hug and kiss or i dunch mind the 79 bucks fer it.

my only hope got screwed up thanks to the lecturer giving obvious hints not once nor twice but THRICE. freaking hell. if you wanna set a tricky question to determine the As and the Bs or even the Cs, you jolly well just stick to it. damn. i'm disappointed with myself.

everything was quite chaotic from friday till this morning (slept at 4am but was there fer 8am lecture and bright awake till 12 noon!). and here ar the events that breeze past.

friday 061006

went fer this last minute wedding dinner that daddy only informed me in the morning. so i skipped the trimming of my hair routine and trip to tailor, stayed home and waited till evening.

me and lovely brother!



me and my cousin, geraldine. long time since i met her though. we used to play hell lot when i was young.



grandma!! kwute. (=



the family. weeee...



me and mummy with the same eyeshadow combi but my eyes were too small to see anything there. haa. as usual.

you know how i hate standing at the left side.

yups, it's only after the dinner, i finally realise it's my grandmother's brother's son's wedding. can't wait fer my cousin's one to come this december. it's at westin. how nice yeah.

and so after the dinner, i went across the streets, chocked by the haze to zouk and met alex and his friends.

phuture was so damn packed and we hated there. we spend most of the time at zouk. pictures ar with alex's friends and i doubt there's any chance they'll reach me.

saturday 071006

so yups... i was waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and always waiting. willingly of cos but i didn't expected to be kept waiting and so i went out at 10 PM on saturday night with javier and his friends.

we caught world trade centre and it wasn't that emo as i expected. it's not a very NICE show but it's good enough to keep me awake. afterall, it's a actual disaster that many suffered. we spent the whole night walking to clarke quay and spend the morning in the neighbourhood after.
was really tired on sunday since i slept around 8 am in the morning. and i was still waiting.

*misses and i want my hug.

i'm foolish.

and so i found this.

Monday, October 18, 2004

gosh, i don't feel bad now. but i feel damn bored. bored of my boring life. i'm only 17 going 18. but i'm sick of my life. why? can i skip everything now and move forward to my life in 8 years later?

oooh, a lil bit to share about how my life would be in the future.

i wanna get married at the age of 26. that's fer sure. on the date, 20-12-2012. (still wants to! (= haa.)

i wanna my two kids to be a december babe and january hunk. (why? cos i'm a sagittarus always attracted by aquarius.)

i wanna work and not get stuck at home to be a dumb housewife. (i dunch mind being a tai tai looking after my hubbie and family. but i still wanna work.)

i wanna love my husband to core and enjoy intimate pleasure with him every now and then. (doesn't change eh...)

i wanna go on holidays with my whole family. (europe? i wanna bring mum to japan first. afterall, dad has always break his promise to bring us there.)

i wanna bring my mum overseas and dote her lyke how she did on me. (yeah, i love mummy.)

i wanna share everything with my lovely brother and get a girlfriend fer him if he doesn't have one. (aha, my only hope now ish him to be smarter.)

i wanna my girl to learn the flute and my boy to play the piano. (yeah, it makes my girl elegant and my boy suave.)

i wanna die at the age of 65. and nothing could ever change that. (maybe 60 now? haa. but some fortune teller told me i'll live a long age. damn.)

i wanna add on just 1 more and here it goes...

i wanna grow old with my girlfriends. travel overseas, shop together and enjoy the finer side of life. have bbqs together with our families every once the month.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......

idiot-ly attracted to red. gonna give them a small sweet surprise. (=

sweet child of mine.

not exactly the one i'm looking fer. but there's still good memories and indulge.

i'm skipping 8 am & 10 am lectures later to self mug at home in the morning. how contradicting.

reason being :

1) 6 am ish definitely not a time to be awake. it's a insane timing.

2) traffic at 7am drags hell out of my time. i waste so much precious time just waiting fer the bus and cars to beep beep beep all the way to nus. and still be late fer lectures.

i want daddy to send me to school. i'll be more than willing to be there fer 8am lectures.

3) my spokeperson job ish doing well fine. 10 am lectures ar meant fer webcast at 11 pm instead.

4) i feel really lethargic. and find no enjoyment in going school. school ish hideous cos all we do everyday ish to bury ourselves with books. it's meaningless. why dunch you just throw me every single textbk and guidebook needed fer each module and let me study at home fer 16 weeks.

5) we used to have so many interactions in poly and now it's lyke dang*

my advice, nus lifescience isn't tt tough. but if you ain't prepared to spend yur 20 hours a day, 7 days a week studying, please do not even attempt stepping into the compound. it's nuts. go get more "practical" experience. you can learn so much more with that.

*kill me, period.

yeah, and you know what? i'm sooooo gonna start mugging during my 4 weeks of holidays fer my semester 2 modules. dunch care dunch care. nerdy.

*someone's gonna laugh at me with that 10 morning calls i promised soon.

and so i tot i was going to have a nice weekend. there comes genetics CA2 haunting me. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeks.

the one night i do not feel lyke sleeping. uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......

someone says i'm fat, a piggie, i snore in the day, boastful, proud, smart and i'm petty lo......

please do not catch stay alive. it's eeeee uuuuuuuu... so crappy.~ didn't knew why i chose sucha movie in the first place. maybe i'm just desperate to watch a movie. after all its been so long since lakehouse with the sharkies.~ how miserable.

happy with what i wore out today. simple and CHICK! haa. (can't stop giggling whenever i think of CHIC. chicky.~)

F21 charcoal top i bought on friday with adeline.
5 bucks aeropostale flirty mini.
and finally a silver necklace i made on friday with adeline.

me and adeline ar being so much lyke dearie girlfriends now.
it started of with the same ripcurl wallet.
then the red F21 top.
a lil tad similar silver necklace.
retro belts.

argh, i just love my girlfriends.~

anyway, me and alex found this interesting promotion at thecathay today.

it's lyke when it's raining and you're all alone, you'll get 50 cents off the UPSIZE meesua. haa. cos it's the AIXIN meesua + UPSIZE. you'll even get UPSIZE oysters. so does it mean that the oysters get bigger or? haa.

it was another lovely day. i tried searching fer my statistic guidebk at kinokuniya and we ended up spending near 2 hours inside.

in another 3 more hours, hell starts again. argh!! 8am lecture. how nice yeah?

updates about friday.

went shopping with adeline in the afternoon. she's soooo pampered and she dislikes walking. haa. but i still love her. and i still want more shopping trips with her. (= we got the same F21 tops, belts and necklaces. had a nice ramen dinner at the usual far east square. waited more than an hour fer dear yan to arrive. it was a tempting night to get into MOS but ade was wearing slippers and yan came after 10.30. and so we headed to mohd sultan and went into daybed lounge. a nice place to chill and relax our poor nerves.







our drinks.

yeah, small eyes.

i know ade ish gonna say something about this picture.

their martinis.

the alcohol ish kicking in.

we all look so pale under blue light.

ghost!



yeah, i absolutely love them!

i'm feeling melancholic. i dunch feel lyke studying becos i'm lack of motivation and perhaps discipline fer it. maybe i'm beginning to think that everything was just studying fer the sake of studying. suddenly it felt as though there's no meaning to it. maybe it's the lifestyle i'm in. and i seriously dread this feeling. i've been studying till 5 am almost every day and then what do i get after it? just an A fer my modules? i doubt that.

i scored full marks fer my first UNI test. how nice yeah? but let me tell you, this bell curve sucks and there's lyke 30% of that 325 students scoring 100. 50+ students scoring 80 to 99. yadew, the only thing i'm happy about was that the 100 marks still came from the oh not so kiasu me with e absolute short and sweet answers. i completed the 30 mins test in less than 5 mins. who the hell writes essays when it's a calculation question. dumb-founded singaporeans.

i'm getting really irritated by kiasu people. when a lecturer ask fer a 200 word reflections, please just fcuking give the old virgin one. why print out a 20 pages essay?

and if you do not know, i've been studying every single weekend or time that i'm free since WEEK ONE! and what's with mid term break? it's more lyke "catching up cos if not you'll go to hell when school reopens" week. tell me the meaning of studying this much? ish it all about trying to be better than someone else or grabbing knowledge cos you need to?

Never Be Lonely - Feeling
Album: Twelve Stops and Home

People in love they're fast and foolish
People in love get everything wrong
People in love get scared and stupid
People in love get everything wrong

At least they're not lonely
At least they're not lonely
They'll never be lonely

B-b-b-baby I think I'm going c-c-c-crazy
Why should I be sane without you (hahh)

They tell me to fight it
They can bloody well just try it
I'll never be the same without you (hahh)

People in love get special treatment
People in love get everything wrong
People in love their hearts get eaten
People in love get everything wrong

At least they're not lonely
At least they're not lonely
They'll never be lonely

B-b-b-baby I think I'm going c-c-c-crazy
And why should I be sane without you (hahh)
They tell me to fight it
But they can bloody well just try it

and you know what? i realise i cannot stand myself being too casual to school. sometimes, i just think i look lyke crap if i do so. especially the past week when i fell sick. oh dear, i miss shopping at fcuk.

i'm still awake. yeah yeah yeah... not surprising after all. but i'm sooooo stuck with my organic chem and eeeeks, i think i'll sleep at most probably six AM? i guess i have no choice cos i gotta spend the day out later with lovable girlfriends.

supposely i've waited fer quite sometime and things doesn't seem to get better. more than enough being passive about something particular. i wanna just play hide and seek now. tadaa... bye, i'm gone* we'll see if you can find me. but then, please hope i dunch run when you do.

i have this baby who does't smiles and say i love you.

if you've notice, there's changes. yups, it goes according to my life and yeah...

it's been 5 months. i love memories and i absolutely dig in the happy walks.

waiting fer 2 weeks, 3 weeks. forgetting about what i've held on to.

i just realise it has been more than 2 months since i've mention i wanna catch how much do you love me? it feels as though it was just a few weeks ago.

i love reading my past entries. awe... it makes me feel silly at times and yet amazed by the things i write abt.

Sunday, July 16, 2006
my heart throbs,
what if he's able to hear it?
with the distance this close,
the imperfections ar flawless.
does he share the same vision as mine?
there was once he look into my eyes and i just melt.
awe...
when was the last time you toss over the bed non-stop thinking about that someone special?
where's that key that lies in it?
ar there only memories to keep but never to last?
i'm 24/7 all about you.
*addicted to romance.

used to? or still?

it's gonna be 2 months since my sharks came into my life. goodness. this ish getting really freaky. time passes so fast and in less than 3 months time (19th december), i'm touching the big 2. dots. and my wish this year ish to have my love ones right beside me and i want a hug from everybody (i'm so in need of them to pass through my 2006). a simple affair and simple gift and yur presence, that's more i ever wish i'll get.

and did i mention? i'm missing someone.

i seem to always make decisions with others in my mind but never has one thought with me in consideration.

k finally! i'm not a big fan of karaoke though. but sometimes you just need sing aloud sessions to chill you out. (=



i dunch know why am i'm grinning so happily and gfs should know i'm fretting more than i should.

and so we have a surprise guest today.

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was out with jimmy fer kbox. poor jimmy waited fer me almost an hour at clementi. but eh, i still went over to fetch him to suntec.



shopping after k and dinner at rennthai! my favourite thai restuarant.



yummy crackers.



debilicious tom yum soup.



mine.



the 2 pathetic shrimps came after.



jimmy's super spicy chicken with basil leaves.

after dinner, we head to the fountain and took a few pictures.





and soon after, we went to look fer new capsules. and we went to play DDR! dots. lyke how childish can? haa.



not very cui la, jimmy.



last stop was esplanade and when i was there, memories seem to spark. i dunch know why. but yeah, i did wish of something.



taken at the roof terence.



tadaa...



nice effect i took while trying so hard to take clear pictures for jimmy.

and so that pretty much ends the 1 day as a tour guide.

it's lyke 1 weekend and it's? all over,

love ish not a maybe thing.

http://www.freewebs.com/tvshows4you/thehills/the_hillss01e09_2.htm

sometimes it just takes an effort or 1 word and that's more than enough.

http://www.freewebs.com/tvshows4you/thehills/the_hillss01e07.htm

http://www.freewebs.com/tvshows4you/thehills/the_hillss01e07_2.htm

this was the reason i slept at 6am this morning.



poor moses, i manage to find this really old fuji cam and tried webcasting with him.
i'm still waiting fer daddy to get me a creative one with mic! soon and everyone can webcast with me!



CLICK and see if you can spot me.

the flower was supposely still blooming lyke a day ago. now it's curling and infront of me. it smells better though.

you know the times you feel all dumb? and you just think that "hey, since you dug yur own grave then please just jolly well smile while you fall in it!" * ar uncontrollable and it gets worst when you fall sick and yur stomach ish rejecting meals. it hasn't been the worst but when am i allowed such good fortune? i still need answers.

did i mention that quite a number of ladies were wearing retro outfits to the ball? 1 simple dress with patent belt? and even some vintage belts that we wear to school? hrmp, should have just gone in my black and white stripes if i knew it was that informal. and i saw so many girls wearing red patent heels, some even with red clips, roses and BRA. i know RED ish so this season, even i was so attracted to this RED valentino dress the other day. but hrmp...

anyway, i was sick and stuck at home and so i caught this 1988 maggie cheung movie. how cool yeah? just when i was only 2 years old. and guess what, the scenes ar the exacts copies of the fashion now. tights, vintage belts, high cut dresses, charm earrings. aiyo, we ar just lacking of that bouncy bouncy hair. woooooo weeeeeeeeee...

hey kristen, i can't seem to tag. but anyway, the dress ish from ebay. try searching fer it. and thanks fer the compliment. (=

i'm overflushed by what has been given to me yet stumbled by the rules that hasn't been set. we'll see if it works out.

*i dunch need a laguna beach hunkie.

should i talk a lil abt sat night? (it's too boring, just skip it if you're not interested. i'm just writing it down fer my own memoir.)

hrmp, i had a hard time sewing that marc jacobs dress the night before (fri). you know i did recieve the wrong dress and the size was lyke HUGE though it's already a size 0. the shoulders + lace were too spacey fer me and the puffer sleeves (too long) didn't seem lyke it on my FAT arms. i should have just brought it to the tailor and get the job done. argh, thanks to thurs being lazy. so the night ended with many bimbotic stuffs. (masking, waxing, blargh blargh blargh.) and i was so tired, i didn't remembered to take off my contacts before i went to bed. argh! curse. and there i go, waking up with RED SORE EYES.

rush to the tailor to get the dress shorten, had jap brunch at paragon with mummy and makeup+hairstyling at hollywood secrets. thanks to my sore eyes, i was only allowed with natural and light colors. alex came and pick me up and we were early fer the ball. so we spent lyke 2 hours walking around and around, socialising, looking at girls and taking pictures.

the dinner was fine but i only enjoyed the dessert. aha. the video that alex and his buddy did fer his unit was really good and yet he was worried the whole night.

we spent another 2 hours waiting fer US to move along to MOS. and weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, i miss the place oh-so-much. (yea-daa, the toliet only.) afterall, that's the place we first met. music was good at smoove and finally he agrees with me. DJ tang was still as suave as usual.

what happens after ... who knows?