have a heart to heart you and me talk.

birthday in merely 2 days but i have this huge and swollen pimple popping. damn! all the dirt, oil and salt. anyways, its still very cold here even the room temperature is 14 to 16 most of time. i do have a travelog but cos the internet sucks and i'm too lazy to continue blogging after 3 entries. so pardon me, and i'll see how it goes. meanwhile, if you really miss me too much, you can look into my man's blog. oh and i can't log in facebook in cheena.

it sucks when your internet browser keeps popping up 'failed to open page'.

my hair still very yucky.

how much do you realise or know about me?

guess what. i kinda miss home, miss my dog, miss my mummy and bro...

yups. i am leaving tml and i just finish all the packing. everything's a rush.

thanks girls fer the early belated present ~ very very pretty.

but i really hope we 4 could meet up more often 09'.

tis the season to be jolly. fa-la-la-la-la-lalalala...

have been losing sleep lately, falling sick, and somehow everynight it seems that the day hasn't been round up yet. do we unknowingly take things fer granted?

this is actually a really nice song. the little nonya protrays lyke 90% of the population ar bad nonyas. evil, cunning, materialistic, flirts, cheats a hungry lady with a hungry child. hrmp, it reminds me of just 1 person.

just when i needed you the most.

anything can happen any minute.

i've been seating on my arm chair since 8pm and my legs are terribly aching. i'm really getting older. 2 more days till pharma and there's so many drugs, mechanism, side effects, disease, agonist, antagonist, treatments, signal cascade, enzymes to memorise. gosh. the flush~ it will get better. it should.

my mind is seriously all about hk 迪士尼雪亮冬日.

tiffany snow flakes! ~ been secretly in love with snowflakes jewellery. pretty pretty. aweee...... reminds me of that crystal diamond ring we saw at club street a year ago?

one more week till the month of festives. falalalalalala...... pretty alphabet charms you could change to yur special touch.

what's a exam paper database when there's a list of papers yet none release? damn.

it seems that my brain cannot work seeing yellow lab tables.

when you start dancing...

to high school muscial tunes...

while mugging...

in the middle of the night...

you know you're on the verge of going bonkers...

7 more hours to immunology EXAM. gosh, why am i still awake?

from the simplest love, the daily dosage of romance, i find my existence in yur heart.

e loveliest singable (from a guy) on a very important day.

Richard Marx - "Now and Forever"



Whenever I'm weary from the battles that rage in my head
You make sense of madness when my sanity hangs by a thread
I lose my way but still you seem to understand
Now and forever
I will be your man.

Sometimes I just hold you
Too caught up in me to see
I'm holding a fortune that heaven has given to me
I'll try to show you each and every way I can
Now and forever I will be your man

Now I can rest my worries and always be sure
That I won't be alone anymore
If I'd only known you were there all the time
All this time

Until the day the ocean doesn't touch the sand
Now and forever
I will be your man
Now and forever
I will be your man

have not been missing. just mugging, trying to listen to only classical music, trying hard not to catch any serials, trying hard not to surf youtube. argh... exams. just 6 days away. anyways, birthday in a month time. yupieeeee!

the stress is terribly mounting up. last week of school, THERE IS LAB REPORT DUE STILL, LECTURES WITH IMPORTANT CONTENTS, THERE IS NEVER EVER TIPS, NEW ADVANCED LEVEL LECTURE NOTES COMING IN STILL!

i'm afraid of disappointments mount on me.

help me.

everything that's on my mind now 24/7 (yes, even when i'm asleep.) ar thoughts of being in china with baby. i know exams ar damn near which means my flight to shanghai is so damn near too! i can't believe how early the anticipation has started but i really miss being ard him and wanna enjoy this holiday with him.

gonna get grounded soon cos my mugging efficiency ish perhaps 30%?

the loneliest friday nights home and it doesn't seem to get any better.

i am feeling the distance perhaps forced under circumstances. with the stress piling up and plans failing, i really wonder if there should be any anticipation. tell me what should i do next, plan my schedule fer me if you want me to be a part of it.

everytime a new picture appears, everything gets so foreign. change is the only constant.

"nothing lasts forever." i've been hearing this sentence fer upteen times. why?

this is noted down fer my bf just in case he needs to recall any.

there's no more CAs left. only with 1 lab report (15%?) which the practical would only be held on the last week of school.

i'll apply visa either first or 2nd week of nov. depending on school schedule becos i'm fully packed with practicals fer the 1st week of nov, which ish the 2nd last week of school. (gawd knows why lecturers ar failures in planning timetables.)

my exams start on the 24th of nov (1 more month to our 2nd anniversary!), next paper on the next day (25th), following on the 27th and last paper on the 2nd dec.

3rd, 4th, 5th would be busy days trying to exchange money, buying necessities and packing luggage.

6th dec, i'll shall meet you at pudong airport with a big smile on my face. (= yuppie!

just caught high school musical 3.

duper funny hamster.




and zac efron ish sooooo omg suave.

but to me, my boy's so much more the heart throb.

sorry baby, gotta dig out a really old picture from you. hee.

i found this from one's profile at sdu (http://www.lovebyte.org.sg/)

I seek for a long term relationship which is binded by love, trust and sincerity. Personally, I ve good feelings for girls who are relatively tall, slim and have sharp features. In terms of character, I like girls who are easy going, sincere and generous. To me, communication is the most important thing in a relationship. As a couple, I believe that both sides should be receptive to hearing about both the good and bad things about each other. It is not the utmost importance to be like minded. However, it is important to be able to respect and embrace each other differences.

Looking For Age: 20 to 28

Seriously this MR, must have not been thinking clearly when sending his application. do you think a girl of such calibre needs sdu to help her search fer a good man?

the end of this year would allow the grants of my wishlist

01* [ ]A Better 08'
02* [ ]Bliss & Happiness
03* [ ]X Overflushed

05* [ ]Study Harder
06* [ ]44 Kilos
09* [ ]Memories To Last
10* [ ]Peektures
14* [ ]Wallet
15* [ ]Patent/Leather Coin Pouch
16* [ ]Tote

and most importantly, the last of all,

19* [ ]C.X

its all gonna happen during december! i hope its gonna be a great trip.

worst rebonding nightmare. i knew it when my hairdresser was doing tricks. =(

missing him lots. nothing can take away that feeling. been trying not to think about him but he's just there. he's getting further and there's nothing i can do now. i just wish he was right beside me.

months without a narcissitic moment. i'm still young, so why waste the youth? nothing should bide me down and i've been thinking about it.

1 picture with one too many variations. soon, you'll be sick of my face. haa.













haa. i told you.
okies back to mugging. i'm done plastering my big head all over.

sometimes it feels so dumb. even when its taken away, nobody knows.

still awake and thinking about something.

its the time of the month, feeling the blues. sadly, alone and used to it.

i'm not a blog reader.

unhealthy mel has officially fainted in a public bus after numerous attempts (thrice?). what an embrassing low sugar moment. now, i have a huge phobia standing in buses, smrt ones. helplessly, you only have yurself to depend on.

i wish fer a braun epilator, canon ixus, ds lite, painless wisdom tooth extraction, a trip to disneyland.

immuno lab today was fruitful. not in terms of what kinda of theory they went through fer 5 hours but it reminded me of days during poly.

what the hell is wrong with singtel. been constantly having connection problems every single night fer almost a week. damn you! we're not paying so much fer this kinda of lousy service.

there's a few friends i really miss, infact has been missing fer a long long time. shamefully i have to admit that we're all drifting away and sadly, that's something we can't control. especially when people starts walking different paths and having different goals. i'm just lucky to have met them and at least memories still stays clear in my heart.

is the sweet sweeter when its given to you or when you ask fer it?

take away the practicality, i have always wanted to live in a fairytale, who doesn't?

make me feel loved.

what a great season.

heroes season 3 just came out.

there's gossip girls, the hills on monday.

there's privileged, 90210 on tuesday.

there's antm season 11 on wednesday.

there's project runway season 5.

there's top design.

what more can i ask right? especially when he's not around.

another night gone mugging fer immunology. not exactly having fun with it but i just realised that whatever killed me during poly was just merely 5 lectures here. i hope it won't be 'mel's bane of life no.2'.  time's short. 32 hrs more to go... i just hope it'll get over soon. CAs ar taxing! they stop me from dividing my attention fer other modules. and hope that my mill wouldn't over-run tomorrow again.

i need some alone time, i might be drifting away.

please cut this distance away.

no more disneyland, fireworks at the magical night, fairy tales.

i miss the jewel in my life.

before i head to bed, some pictures taken this week. it was actually quite a great week besides mugging hard fer pharmaco's CA which did paid off well, the tedious biotech first practical and the thought of immuno's CA next week. how many times have i not mention immuno. dread it cos the notes ish almost crap though i really hope its just as it loooks.

yeah, we rushed to the airport to send chancy off to london. uhhhh, with envy.

tell me if its still the same.

i have no idea why i'm looking at my nussu diary at this hour and actually planning my exam timetable revision slots. gosh...

was suppose to hopefully read through all my immunology notes today. but i ended up stuck after the practical notes. then, i spent the whole day with my eyes closed. i have no idea how tired i am. but it's only 12 midnight and i feel lyke sleeping already. hai. so much fer a non-productive day. how am i gonna face that 30% immunology CA next week? i wish i could skip lab next week and stay home most of the days, 睡到自然醒 and mug. everything was push to study week, but time would never not work yur way.

i dunch lyke when things get mudane and you have to get used to stuffs.

i'm getting old i know.

i hate times when i feel melancholic (there's so many worries on and off) and i have to pull up myself.

we should all learn to be smiling, inside our hearts.

my wisdom tooth ulcer hurts duper badly.

gossip girls season 2 ish back. weeeeee!

if we all take some time to show appreciation.

i'm hate walking along the streets alone.

why would one wanna do something that jeopardises everything you have once built up?

he creates me the illusion of one bigarse stereotype.

i'm trying hard to tell myself that those didn't existed.

all this shiat has left me with nothing but sorrows and fears.

is this all in the genes?

i'm ultimately disappointed that you re-ran history.

i just wanna leave and hope it doesn't affects my own life. i bet it somehow already did.

i will protect whoever's the victim here. and you will not earn any of my respect.

i have no idea what i'm anxious about or worried about. perhaps spending too large a sum of money makes one keep wondering if its worth it or ish it a bad decision. sometimes, i'm scared of making too many decisions.

http://tw.myblog.yahoo.com/jesse1113-jesse1113/article?mid=47380&prev=49962&next=45069&l=f&fid=13

不能沒有男人的女人

第四名
射手座重點就在：真的膽大還是膽小？

射手女非常害怕孤單，孤單會讓她們覺得就像迷失在茫茫宇宙間，快要消失滅頂，所以內心深處都是很依賴那個“讓她可依賴的人“。而且射手女多半膽子都不大，就算面對大場面面不改色或敢高空彈跳的也一樣，她的膽小是顯現在細節上，好比半夜不敢起床上廁所、怕黑不開燈無法入睡、不敢一個人等，都讓她需要有人陪伴，所以有男友保護後，要她適應單身恐怕是很困難的吧？更別說射手女的外型通常高挑亮眼，清純中帶有豔麗，而且體態健美又很會打扮，是引人遐想的佳人，當然逃不過男生關愛的眼神，男友一個接一個也就不足為奇了。

nothing to blog besides paying attention to school matters, getting a new laptop, saving my ibm.

i hate this feeling now that he's so far away and there's nothing i can do.
nothing i could do to make this feeling go away.

been jinx and i officially hate P*Cs now. the girls especially.

they said...

girls forgive but will never forget.
guys forget but will never forgive.

every weekend afternoon naps makes me feel outta breath.

one small conversation the other day puts me pondering...

is trust build up upon? or given until lost?

forensic from 7 to 10pm. i used to have architecture till 9pm and always have dearest cx to fetch me home including one vday night. besides maybe twice or thrice? outta the full 13 weeks. i really wish he was here.

school's starting in not more than 6 hours time, i can't stop yawning but i'm nowhere near la la land. urgh...

its cold in here and it pretty much reflects everything.

its time to reciprocate.

woo... school is starting soon and i'm gonna get to see my bf soon. yeah, i wished.

明明很累,却又睡不着.
明明很迟才睡,却又很早就起.

Everything will change
But, love remains the same

i'm pretty stuck.

my nose ish kinda swollen.

i'm not getting enough sleep.

i just got myself a near 150bucks webcam.

plus i have 5 B.I.P cards now.

my maid lykes putting my fan near my headspace and i have no idea why.

its all blank.

the new jac laurent bands ar gorgeous!

its not that easy.

sometimes i really wish that i was there with him. not fer my selfish needs but hoping that i could be there to share his troubles, stress, worries, keeping him accompanied and making sure there's suitable meals fer him to eat.

time passes by too slowly without him around. i wish i was there to share that duper big room with him.

wooo, its great hearing his voice.

gosh, those nasty feelings ar really starting to eat in. i miss my boy.

i really wish that baby is just away fer a week of holiday w/o me.

starting to worry about the next 5 months. how would it be lyke w/o baby around with me in the new sem?

and so the time has come, baby flew just 10 mins ago. no, i didn't weep lyke a baby in t3. yes, i tried means to control them. i know he'll be fine. everything would have to take a pause fer the moment. no more safe rides home, supper nights, sme and hotcakes, passion fruit bubble teas, baby right there in msn, baby keeping track of my well-to-do, weekends, stayovers, someone to cuddle, someone to lean on. but i'll be fine. emotional needs beats physical needs. tonight ish what is meant by home alone.

the thought of sending baby away tomorrow at the airport saddens me. i will curb the tears and pray fer his safety.

not sure if you all had notice. i just had a new haircut and slight blink of color fully sponsered by my beloved including treatments which costs half of the whole package. did you saw that shine of love?

dark knight and my fav steamboat on sat. everything with baby beside on sunday.

you shouldn't really be expecting me to blog. as you might have all known, someone ish leaving, infact just 6 days later, all i wish ish to squeeze in all my time fer him.

last night baby brought me to henderson waves - wish granted. i know he's trying to make sure that i'm well taken off before he leaves. been to places i wanna go, eat what i hunger fer, do activities that i wanna do, purchase items that i wanna have or need. to sidetrack a lil, he even intended to get me something from tiff & co although there wasn't much nice designs on display and i wasn't prepared and didn't had a glimpse of the palamo picasso crown of hearts collection. (who remembers sucha long insignifcant name and the sales lady couldn't even figure out which i was refering to when i tried describing it as many hearts piece together. wasn't that fantastic afterall looking at the webbie.)

back to topic. so it was henderson waves, suntec fer tuesday gelare waffles which stuffed us so badly to the brim, spin around the singapore flyer and visits to chinatown. everything with baby doesn't have to be that complicated and planned as long as the day goes well.

pictures fer the night.

















favourite picture of the night.

any-o-ways, i'm really hungry now and that boy isn't back from bball. i think i can eat him up when he's back.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jJOzdLwvTHA

INGRID MICHAELSON - "The Way I Am"

If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.

Cuz I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.

If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.

Cuz I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.

I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.

Cuz I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.

fer all i know, baby's leaving real sooon. to be honest, i have no clue what would life be lyke when he's gone. i know things will gradually get along the way (it has to anyway) but before he leaves, there's still so many things i wish could happen. as long as it's a mutual thing and i'm notified, i would feel at least contented. the only thing i could do ish to convince myself with ignoring the last week of july and first week of dec and its only mere 4 months that he's going to be away. 28th dec? though he's not half way off the globe but half year away from home.