the ridiculously expensive dinner last night. thanks to the heavy rain in the east, i couldn't drive to fisherman's village and we ended up at this restuarant.

famous fer it's curry crab. the curry ain't that fantastic but the fresh crab ish superb.

crab beehoon. the soup was overdosed with pepper. the noodles were nice and spongy and once again, the crab ish de-bi-li-cious!

they call it the bamboo clam which costs us 10 bucks fer stick. it's lyke paying 10 bucks fer fried garlic.

there's still steam clams which the family amazingly gobbled up every bit before i could lay my hands on them.

organic chem ish over. and only fer 1 week. blargh! i want my 3%. i want my 3%!

will blog about leaving that 5 chapters of organic chemistry and driving out fer a pampered dinner when i squeeze time fer it yeah? tomorrow ish going to be a damn pack day with organic chemistry test at 10 am, 3 hours break to rush my 2 essays dued on tuesday + 1 food and health report dued on wednesday, genetics lab and then off to be cuddled + preview of the crank, IT project at night. tell me about rest?

*boring + boring = interesting. how interesting.

i just finish 8 chapters of intro with organic chemistry only. how dreadful. i have lyke 6 to 8 more major chapters to carry on later. tell me about poly. what's the big fuss if you just gotta study bundled notes. have a good look at mine.

with all the junk food and ice lemon tea.

all these fer just 10% on monday. which i doubt i can get more than 5%.

swensens last night. + death note and side track with sweet lil talks that keeps someone asking why am i laughing and smiling all the time.

someone ish a irritating bastard. a disappointment we had fer so long.

5.19am

:) i love you too..

*many random thoughts.

there's so many things stopping us but i'm wholeheartedly awaiting.

everybody ish loving my necklace, so am i. (= it's lyke with me every single day!

and did i mention i'm so sick of myself now. i feel so freaking fat and bloated. i know it's the time of the month. but it's pretty irritating! where's my uzap? i've been waiting fer ages.

i wanna drive daddy's new car out tomorrow but tarot cards did mention about car accidents this week.

its not nice being just part of someone's boring life.

i'm learning so much every single date and you know how much i love being with the intellectual.

loving this issue of time magazine. waaah, lovely dosage.

different and i know it. unless of it's a pack of lies. but i doubt so yeah. and definitely hope not.

still very disturbed by that sms.

still very disappointed with someone from the past.

still very tired of organic chemistry.

still hoping that the year would end well with a good beginning.

still there fer you.

still wondering.

still find the need to say you need me and oh so much.

still left stagnant.

still in love.

8 am lectures ar dreadful. less than 3 hours of sleep. i'm a supa-woman.

i'm so not* (031106 6.41pm) going fer holiday this december. talk about results. dreadful, i tell ya.

keeping track of the movies i've caught lately.

the prestige --> thursday 191006

the guardian --> tuesday 241006

the prestige was thumbs up!

disappointed with someone from the past.

here goes yixin's celebration. i'll upload more soon.



her lovely and tasty cake.



the slim and pretty bday girl!



they say we look lyke twins going to national day. =D



pretty girls in red. i dig!



the candid shot yixin's mum took.



me and the birthday girl. i hope she really lykes her bday present though.



haa. the reunited gf. yahui. spent the whole night with her.



so long, i'm going to bed early. cos i'm tired. really tired.

why ish raquel and alex breaking up too? this ish so irritating. guys ar just some big bunch of jerks. we'll see how it goes? faints. i hate such similar scenes. lyke i'm willing cos you're worth it? love ish suppose to be romantic and everything. what do you want? how to you feel? i care about you. maybe you care too much? why ar you so sad? i'm scared, alex. rips of bits and pieces running around.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YmrNu6IJpc0

i'm done? and you go next to some girl and get her number. when yur ex attracts another guy, you say she's a slut? this ish killing me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yvFmQBduZlA

i'm also afraid of getting hurt but more afraid of losing you.

i had a very tiring weekend and all i wanna have with me now ish my organic chem textbook, guidebook, family, gfs and him. please do not disturb. thanks.

blogger ish so slow today!

anyway, i'm so happy with what i got fer yixin's 21st. since she's stuck in her chalet now, i doubt she has any chance to read this entry. so waah laa... here's the present i got her.



red! my favourite color as fer now. haa.



some pictures of us fer memos. yahui ish sharing the gift with me.



necklace with all the keys. sadly, that's the amount of keys i can find.

talking about necklace, i just made myself a new one today again. and the inspiration comes from someone special.



tadaa, with photo inside. i won't say it's really nice. but it's at least meaningful.

my friends has been wondering the amount of necklaces i have and some others thinks that i change a necklace every single day. and here goes, my humble collection.



my favourite. i dunch know why.



2nd on the list!



i lost my orginal rainbow and finally found some hearts to replace the missing.



simple necklace.



vintage one. with a small oval locket too!

i have another one with keys and heart too.~

if you appreciate them, do let me know. i'll let you know the price. but it will not go below 20. maybe just 20 with normal postage. these charms doesn't come cheap.

anyway, here ar the additonal charms i'm selling.



price varies from 1 to 6.

so long, back to mugging mode. and 1 month from now. i'll continue holding on.

did i mention i'm very disappointed with myself? i got myself strike off an A even if i'm gonna score full marks fer stats exams. tad stupid.

Royksopp - Only This Moment

Only this moment
Holds us together
Close to perfection
Nothing else out there
No one to guide us
Lost in our senses
Deep down inside I know our love will die

Only this moment
Holds us together
Lost in confusion
Feelings are out there
Scared of devotion
Doubting intentions
Deep down inside I know our love will die

Stay or forever go
Play or you'll never know
What heaven decided
You can't deny it's
All you've been waiting for

Stay or forever go
Play or you'll never know
Your spirits divided
You will decide if I'm
All you've been waiting for

Clouds in my head have been parted with grace
By the voice of an angel revealing her face
and her words they make sense 'n' I do understand
Falling in love isn't part of a plan

Forces within me mix reason with lust, but
I'll try to accept it and not make it worse
'cause I know I might loose it by taking the chance,
(But) love without pain isn't really romance

Only this moment
Holds us together
Close to perfection
Nothing else out there
Always beside her
Trusting my senses
Deep down inside I know love will survive

Only this moment
Holds us together
Close to perfection
Nothing else out there
Always beside her
Trusting my senses
Deep down inside I know love will survive

mms://streaming.miaccess.com/mos/royksopp_onlythismoment_300k.wmv

says:
kid kenobe
says:
dj..
the mc is shureshock

everytime i catch the new episode of laguna beach 3, i feel that i'm stuck in one. so much fer watching sucha bimbo show. i love tessa and raquel though. they ar at least nice girls.

*it'll just never have a good ending.

no, i'm not done with stats but i need a break. (typing as records fer memos. you dunch have to read it if you ain't interested. but why ar you here in the first place?)

wednesday night - yan invited me to catch the premiere of death note. initally i tot it was another lame jap horror flick but it turn out really nice though the ending was as expected.

thursday - i woke up rejecting life. i was terrified with the amount of time i spent studying meaninglessly. i felt stupid and useless fer being clueless or near to nothing about organic chemistry and i refused to attend school. i dunch know why ish it affecting me so badly this time and i was on the verge of tears during tutorial. maybe because i still felt that no matter how hard i've tried grasping the module, it's never ending and killing me.

friday - i had a relaxing 1 hour of school and fled to town. caught little miss sunshine and it was light-hearted and funny at the same time. shop around and was really enjoying myself. got stuck at pull and bear the very last minute. and now alex claims it's my favourite shop. i dig the skinnies there! it's cheap and lovely. so tempted to get broke there and couldn't resist getting myself the red cardigan. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....... we spent the night at MOS. the first time i went there in nude. (makeup i meant + the oily and smelly hair) smoove was disgusting fer once and i didn't even spot DJ tang. the music was so bad and we spent 3/4 of our time sitting down, enjoying the main arena. i dunch recall the guest DJ and emcee but they were really good.

look at the huge disco ball. i dig!

our megawatt smile. (argh, look at how plain i was.)

*alright, back mugging. i feel the motivation coming back.! weeeeeeeeeeeeeee..... aja aja fighting!

i will blog later and post pictures when i finish stats later in the morning alright.

*i know some people ar unhappy with me and my decisions. maybe standing inside the circle makes 1 foolish and you know how much i'm laughing at myself.

*but i was happy just to be there. ish it illusional or?

who's unhappy and not motivated at all? me! why? cos organic chemistry ish seriously killing me. it's lyke going through sec 3 pure chemistry when i flunk every single test fer a year. will it turn out lyke o's where the hardwork gave me a A2? with this little amount of time. i doubt myself.

just paid 20 bucks to alter that fcuk shirt. the person who's gonna recieve it better give me a big hug and kiss or i dunch mind the 79 bucks fer it.

my only hope got screwed up thanks to the lecturer giving obvious hints not once nor twice but THRICE. freaking hell. if you wanna set a tricky question to determine the As and the Bs or even the Cs, you jolly well just stick to it. damn. i'm disappointed with myself.

everything was quite chaotic from friday till this morning (slept at 4am but was there fer 8am lecture and bright awake till 12 noon!). and here ar the events that breeze past.

friday 061006

went fer this last minute wedding dinner that daddy only informed me in the morning. so i skipped the trimming of my hair routine and trip to tailor, stayed home and waited till evening.

me and lovely brother!



me and my cousin, geraldine. long time since i met her though. we used to play hell lot when i was young.



grandma!! kwute. (=



the family. weeee...



me and mummy with the same eyeshadow combi but my eyes were too small to see anything there. haa. as usual.

you know how i hate standing at the left side.

yups, it's only after the dinner, i finally realise it's my grandmother's brother's son's wedding. can't wait fer my cousin's one to come this december. it's at westin. how nice yeah.

and so after the dinner, i went across the streets, chocked by the haze to zouk and met alex and his friends.

phuture was so damn packed and we hated there. we spend most of the time at zouk. pictures ar with alex's friends and i doubt there's any chance they'll reach me.

saturday 071006

so yups... i was waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and always waiting. willingly of cos but i didn't expected to be kept waiting and so i went out at 10 PM on saturday night with javier and his friends.

we caught world trade centre and it wasn't that emo as i expected. it's not a very NICE show but it's good enough to keep me awake. afterall, it's a actual disaster that many suffered. we spent the whole night walking to clarke quay and spend the morning in the neighbourhood after.
was really tired on sunday since i slept around 8 am in the morning. and i was still waiting.

*misses and i want my hug.

i'm foolish.

and so i found this.

Monday, October 18, 2004

gosh, i don't feel bad now. but i feel damn bored. bored of my boring life. i'm only 17 going 18. but i'm sick of my life. why? can i skip everything now and move forward to my life in 8 years later?

oooh, a lil bit to share about how my life would be in the future.

i wanna get married at the age of 26. that's fer sure. on the date, 20-12-2012. (still wants to! (= haa.)

i wanna my two kids to be a december babe and january hunk. (why? cos i'm a sagittarus always attracted by aquarius.)

i wanna work and not get stuck at home to be a dumb housewife. (i dunch mind being a tai tai looking after my hubbie and family. but i still wanna work.)

i wanna love my husband to core and enjoy intimate pleasure with him every now and then. (doesn't change eh...)

i wanna go on holidays with my whole family. (europe? i wanna bring mum to japan first. afterall, dad has always break his promise to bring us there.)

i wanna bring my mum overseas and dote her lyke how she did on me. (yeah, i love mummy.)

i wanna share everything with my lovely brother and get a girlfriend fer him if he doesn't have one. (aha, my only hope now ish him to be smarter.)

i wanna my girl to learn the flute and my boy to play the piano. (yeah, it makes my girl elegant and my boy suave.)

i wanna die at the age of 65. and nothing could ever change that. (maybe 60 now? haa. but some fortune teller told me i'll live a long age. damn.)

i wanna add on just 1 more and here it goes...

i wanna grow old with my girlfriends. travel overseas, shop together and enjoy the finer side of life. have bbqs together with our families every once the month.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......

idiot-ly attracted to red. gonna give them a small sweet surprise. (=

sweet child of mine.

not exactly the one i'm looking fer. but there's still good memories and indulge.

i'm skipping 8 am & 10 am lectures later to self mug at home in the morning. how contradicting.

reason being :

1) 6 am ish definitely not a time to be awake. it's a insane timing.

2) traffic at 7am drags hell out of my time. i waste so much precious time just waiting fer the bus and cars to beep beep beep all the way to nus. and still be late fer lectures.

i want daddy to send me to school. i'll be more than willing to be there fer 8am lectures.

3) my spokeperson job ish doing well fine. 10 am lectures ar meant fer webcast at 11 pm instead.

4) i feel really lethargic. and find no enjoyment in going school. school ish hideous cos all we do everyday ish to bury ourselves with books. it's meaningless. why dunch you just throw me every single textbk and guidebook needed fer each module and let me study at home fer 16 weeks.

5) we used to have so many interactions in poly and now it's lyke dang*

my advice, nus lifescience isn't tt tough. but if you ain't prepared to spend yur 20 hours a day, 7 days a week studying, please do not even attempt stepping into the compound. it's nuts. go get more "practical" experience. you can learn so much more with that.

*kill me, period.

yeah, and you know what? i'm sooooo gonna start mugging during my 4 weeks of holidays fer my semester 2 modules. dunch care dunch care. nerdy.

*someone's gonna laugh at me with that 10 morning calls i promised soon.

and so i tot i was going to have a nice weekend. there comes genetics CA2 haunting me. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeks.

the one night i do not feel lyke sleeping. uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......

someone says i'm fat, a piggie, i snore in the day, boastful, proud, smart and i'm petty lo......

please do not catch stay alive. it's eeeee uuuuuuuu... so crappy.~ didn't knew why i chose sucha movie in the first place. maybe i'm just desperate to watch a movie. after all its been so long since lakehouse with the sharkies.~ how miserable.

happy with what i wore out today. simple and CHICK! haa. (can't stop giggling whenever i think of CHIC. chicky.~)

F21 charcoal top i bought on friday with adeline.
5 bucks aeropostale flirty mini.
and finally a silver necklace i made on friday with adeline.

me and adeline ar being so much lyke dearie girlfriends now.
it started of with the same ripcurl wallet.
then the red F21 top.
a lil tad similar silver necklace.
retro belts.

argh, i just love my girlfriends.~

anyway, me and alex found this interesting promotion at thecathay today.

it's lyke when it's raining and you're all alone, you'll get 50 cents off the UPSIZE meesua. haa. cos it's the AIXIN meesua + UPSIZE. you'll even get UPSIZE oysters. so does it mean that the oysters get bigger or? haa.

it was another lovely day. i tried searching fer my statistic guidebk at kinokuniya and we ended up spending near 2 hours inside.

in another 3 more hours, hell starts again. argh!! 8am lecture. how nice yeah?

updates about friday.

went shopping with adeline in the afternoon. she's soooo pampered and she dislikes walking. haa. but i still love her. and i still want more shopping trips with her. (= we got the same F21 tops, belts and necklaces. had a nice ramen dinner at the usual far east square. waited more than an hour fer dear yan to arrive. it was a tempting night to get into MOS but ade was wearing slippers and yan came after 10.30. and so we headed to mohd sultan and went into daybed lounge. a nice place to chill and relax our poor nerves.







our drinks.

yeah, small eyes.

i know ade ish gonna say something about this picture.

their martinis.

the alcohol ish kicking in.

we all look so pale under blue light.

ghost!



yeah, i absolutely love them!