the only thing i wanna get now ish "miss me" jeans. they ar so duper yummy.

ain't feeling good today. it makes me speechless. the only thing that could brighten up my life ish to get my fav fcuk tee.

you know the taste of satisfaction with yur completed assignment? i'm 98% away from finishing my essay and i'm so proud of myself and my lovely partner. it was sucha a headache to squeeze everything before wednesday so that i could have enough time to accompany my king fer his bookout. i guess it's time fer another war this weekend. imagine i've to squeeze 3 projects in 3 nights just fer king. but lyke i've said. king ish yummy and i will do anything fer him.

remember i once talk about how weird it is fer a group of guys to date the same girl? oooh, it's lyke cheese cloth using again and over again.

how true it is that you only blog about what you want people to know about you. but it's amazing how people lie to their friends and audience. i know that everybody has a secret. but lying on stuffs to keep you on popularity ish so artifical. lying on how much you hate this thing but yet has it, ish so artifical. lying on stuffs to prevent yurself from being seen thru by others ish so miserable.

i don't care how people see in me when i criticize. seriously that's me being straight-forward within that moment of thoughts. at least i don't blog boring diary paragraphs about how my baby doll went missing. blargh, you get my idea. the fact that people who doesn't know you, shouldn't be able to affect you by drawing with a dark charcoal all over yur face.

my thoughts ar random. sometimes they come in a bunch. and craps.

on tuesday, i had this comment from someone in my NEW class that he shouldn't tell me 'smt'. and so he claims that i'm a 'BIG MOUTH'. he's just so lucky that i caught my cool that day. i would have given him a big tight slap fer speaking rubbish infront of me. if i've never spoken more than 1 paragraph to anyone in my class and lecture personally (of cos beside the ones who got transfered with me in this new bunch of lecture). where did the big mouth came from? some guys just do absurd stuffs to catch yur attention.

wala, good dye.

am still 800 words, 4 paragraphs away from my targeted scientific essay. "molecular diagnosis of alpha and beta thalassemia" after reading soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo many scientific papers since, am totally numb to every single one now. if any of you really wish to go into science, please think twice before doing so. scientific papers are really terrors that you wouldn't want to go through. believe me, they are a billion, billion, billion, million, million, million times tougher than yur average textbook.

and so the king was back fer 2 precious night. i tried my best to push everything off just to keep him accompanied. we had lovely moments by each other. and so just lyke every other girl would do. pictures with the NS style. didn't took any with his smart 4. cos it was argh, too big fer me. though it's a M in size. so the caps shall make me gleaming.





we caught the island at a extravagant price of 9.50 each. it's overall still a-o-kay. the plot was a lil interesting. but the scenes were just somehow normal to make out the movie.

did shopping. got myself a really nice tee. i love the graphics on it. am so in love with the bebe satin camisole and lacey pearls tank top. oooooh, but one cost 129 and the other cost 89. mum would gladly kill me in peace if i were to get them. mango's new season collection ish not bad too. the victorian style ish back in town. i love that victorian style white jacket. and again, it cost 179. why do the stuffs i choose ar always that ex. wanted to get the purple zara shrug but the last piece was a miserable L. eeeeeks. and don't ever remind me about fcuk. their new season tops ar terrible. i mean the tees ar. the only design i fancy ish of a material of 19.90 bucks.

remember about those ugly beads i say. it's crashing everywhere. and it's either getting bigger or even shiny. give it 2 weeks to a month and it should be over. necks would be suffering real hard by then. i played with this enormous white ugly one while shopping today. and king yelled at me. haa. and every shop kept claiming that those ar pearls. seriously, pearls doesn't cost less than 9 bucks. doesn't mean that it's round and shiny, it's yur so called pearls.

am waiting fer king's book out again. he's yummy. haa.

i know i've been sucha naughty girl today. i've slept to 2.30 pm. i studied lyke 'kachang putei' today. and i'm not paying attention to my lecture notes though my last CT ish 35 hours later. i'm sucha irresponsible girl today.


but


i've


found


classics


while going thru my com.





now, just lyke i've told you. it's so classic. taken the time we haven't even got together. 24th april 2003. ain't it classic?

but we've grown up together. and definitely look better.



and even better.



yeah 'la'. better as so do i claim. hee.

going to bed now. 5 in the morning. how crap can i be. and king ish coming back into my arms in a day's time. yuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuupie!

i'm beginning to feel the stress. cos i've 3 presentations and 2 term paper to hand in after my CT. damn. i hate missing lessons and how evil ar you to keep notifications to yurself. trust me, there ar things i would choose to do alone NOW.

if you realise, i've been blogging one sentence nonsensical entries. and does it really bores you off? actually, i really hope it does. or would you rather read 5 lines paragraphs of my daily routine of sleeping, eating and studying?

talking about corset. i would very in much, want a corset wedding dress.

you know sometimes how strangers irritates you? why they kept thinking that they ar part of yur life and they start blaggering stuffs to you and they seem to be really clear of the matter. could you just shun off and mind yur own. or you ar just some maniac sticking a piece of unwanted jigsaw puzzle into my lovely frame. i don't get the point fer you to allow yurself in such fantasy. it creeps people off and softly in my heart, i despise you. i despise the way yur memory flows and creates a unknown world of yur own to self-indulge in it. gawd, you ought to take some pills.

i've always said, unless you ar guilty of above mention, don't bother about it. if it itches yur mind, i'm glad it does. and please follow simple instructions.

when should i start my 1800 literature review. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeks. i hate attending seminars.

i know i have flabby arms w/o any muscles and no cup size of C.

but i wanna get a corset top or dress. a ultimate black victorian style. !!

here i am. trying to keep myself awake till 5 am. fer gawd knows what reason. perhaps waiting fer the moment king ish bombard by 5 sickening sms i sent him throughout the night about the frustrations. and trust me, i'm going to bed right after 5 with my phone off.

so it's king's and the jewel's 26th month together. *claps claps*
am happy to be virtually beside my darling.

shall be back studying.

and yeah, i lyke the way my blog appeals to me.

i love my blog. yes, i do. not becos i think my blog ish of good quality. infact, it's not. my english was never good at all and my grammer ish forever terrible. i still love my blog cos it allows me to go through thoughts i had before. mistakes i've made, rantings i've shouted, and every single pieces that adds up to this blog of mine. people do change as time pass by. their thoughts, their beliefs, their fancies. changes i've made in respond to the environment. and things i do not wish to blog about after the season i felt that my privacy, my style, my life has been invaded. i no longer blog as freely as i would or could. and perhaps it's time i'll shift. or perhaps it's time fer people to leave. and maybe things would turn out better. and time again would tell my decision.

king ish never off my mind. 9 to 11 pm ish the peak of my life. i've pick up different habits within days. i'll bring my hp everywhere i go. and after 9.30, i'll bring my house phone and hp everywhere i go. i'll type a sms draft at 9.30 so that i could send king in time.

am free these days cos of study and exam week. but ain't gonna blog much i guess. i'm beginning to detest some strangers. and that's bad.

i did illegal driving today. and gawd, i really don't know how to brake. haa.

am absolutely in a dull mood today. i realise that whenever i rely on ppl, i get disappointments. gawd, i never want to rely on anyone again.

am still missing my king.

i feel fear when he's not around. how terrible can it be.

so how did i spend my day without my dearest king. (this maybe a lil boring)

i tried to wake up as late as i could. 1 pm to be exact.

i went out fer brunch with mum and bro. did groceries till 5 pm.

rent 4 vcds which i will slowly place a nice time slot fer. went back home and caught the first one with bro. son of the mask. funny but lame.

slept till 8. kept tuning on the star sports to catch f1's qualifying race. and damn, they didn't broadcast it. and seriously i don't know why. i don't remembering encountering such problems with king around. i'll just pray at hard that the race will be screened.

ate my boring dinner and gosh i've forgotten how i spent the next hour. i just recall myself waiting fer king's phone call from 9 to 10 pm.

i spent 10 to 12 talking to king. but yeah, of cos not the whole two hours. he called me thrice. 2 after his bath. another illegal call at 10.55 pm. it all adds up to only mere 7 mins. i looked through all pics of my and king and did a wallpaper of us which i could lay my eyes on the moment i'm with my lappy.

i dragged and bath at 11.30 pm. watch my fav show a 12 midnight.

caught another vcd at 1 am. a series of unfortunate events. it's alright. at least it wasn't boring. at least i wasn't wondering off about king.

so the poor king called at 2.06 am cos he couldn't sleep and was missing me badly. i tried my best to kept tears, cheer him up and sooth him back to sleep.

i'm guess i'm pretty good in arranging my time slot. i slot everything in order, so that there wouldn't be a lonesome time. during commercial breaks, i'll go through every single of king's message in my phone. and in the process, realise that if my phone was stolen. i would cry soooooooooooooo very badly not becos of the value or afraid of dad's yells. i would cry becos the only things i left that keeps me close to my king ish missing. and gone. ooooh, better not let that happen. i would curse and kill the hp stealer.

so it's 4.16 now. and poor king has to be awake in another hour time. bye. i'll tuck into bed and pray fer him right now.

i was spending my whole day sending the king away from the palace. i skipped 1 major practical class and two lectures just to see a gimpse of my king the last time. 2 weeks ish oooh sooo long fer me. and i miss him the moment i board the bus home. it was a long and lonely ride home. i used to have the king's shoulders and his arms cuddling around me. i didn't drop any tear when i saw him far away from my vision. but lyke i said, i would. and it would happen in the night when i'm all alone again. i used to have king talking with me on the phone every single day fer 4 hours. i can't stop thinking about my king and won't stop sobbing alone. i know he misses me too cos he couldn't sleep at 11 plus. and sneak a call telling me so. i miss my king so much and i'm already planning hard fer the weekend 2 weeks later. awwww, though i'm sucha independent girl in my studies, i'm always ultimately dependent on my king. i can't imagine the weekends which he wouldn't be able to book out. i guess i would be devastated just lyke now. stop reminding me of king or my room floods. how am i gonna spend the 2 study weeks alone. blargh, i'm soooo lonesome. i'm lyke a lil baby missing her milk. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawwwh. )=

my thoughts ain't collective enough to write a decent entry.

fantastic four was filled with comedic shots but the ending was totally too short.

no more shoppng trips fer me.

the king ish leaving the palace fer his sail trip.

sobbbs.

life ish soooo unfair. i'll be having the next 2 weeks of break and yet king will be enlisted this week. who ish gonna spend the days and nights with me?

live 8 was the coolest concert. and how scary it is that every 3 secs, one ish dead?

yuppie, i've finally got one boho skirt today. too bad it's not long enough but i still love it.

you know how pearls and those big 'gong taos' ar in the fashion these days? they ar everywhere. the classic pearls ar still okay. but the black, purple, red, green and glitzery stuffs ar scary okies. especially the big 'gong taos'. makes you look absolutely lyke a nun.



i kept joking with king that, those ar actually white in the first place but when you curse someone, it will turn black slowly cos it has absorbed all yur sins. just lyke bad jade turning greener as time goes by. and ooh ya, those big button earrings that everyone's wearing. it's sooo retro.

if you really find sucha need to follow the fashion, don't waste yur money buying them. dig out yur mum's jewellery and there ish it!!







i remember the times i kept playing with mum's earrings when i was only 6. and theirs ar really classics oookies. ya don't even need a hole fer it. holes ar so unoriginal.



mummy's age use 'clip clip' style.



and there you hav the pearls too!

and lastly, the crappiest photo i've taken. a copyright of how young girls pose these days.

the 1, 2, 5 !!





ooookies. tt's all fer the day.

thursday has always been a day fer movies. and the episode will end next week when king goes fer NS. war of the worlds were ultimately great. i didn't even felt that it was too lengthy. it just kept my eyes glued to the screen. most importantly, i lyke the meaning behind it. it says they plan, came, conquered and lost not due to the weapons we created. everyone has a right to survive and human nature builds it's own immunity fer survival.

i wanna increase my wishlist. fer soooooooooooo long i wanted tiered boho skirts. i hope zara's sale will be able to get me one. and yeah, i wanna a big victorian ring fer my thumb. saw this fabulous one yesterday. but it cost freaking 29 bucks and dear dear, i'm totally broke. so we'll shall see what happens.