By the way, i just discovered this all thanks to Khairomi. You could actually go Yahoo and search fer my full name (Melissa Lee Huay Er). And you'll get my blog webby there! Super cool right? Hee. Makes me seem so popular. Wow... I know what you must be thinking... I'm a naive ger? Haa. Please let me be happy fer once. (=

Went out today, got my highlight. Reading back this...

Wednesday, April 30, 2003

heloo, i've just woke up from a nap. been out today again. went to highlight my hair. it's red ruby but after a few months of washing it gonna turn brown blonde. er, i'm not sure to say whether it's nice or not. overall alright. it's the colour i've wanted all along but it's kinda not as obvious enough. anyway, as told by everyone around me, it will be obvious after a few washes. which i hope really will. haa. i think it should be the right colour fer me now, i've decided to be kinda low down fer the time being. so, give me half a year and i'll give ya craze, i believe so.

Yeah yeah, my hair ish now a craze and perhaps too much!! Wasn't able to get the color i want, cos hairdresser said it's hard to mix that color and my hair will never get that shade i want. Den she gave me this color... Chestnut base color and blonde strips. But argh, it was a total nightmare! My hair turn out super orange and blonde! Nah, i can't possibly go back in time to stop this. Overall, i'm just pretty contempted with it i guess and i hope.

After getting my hair done, i went to meet darling at far east plaza. We plan to get our neoprints done fer our new hairstyle. Oops, i mean color. I love them all. Really fantastic. Hee. Take a look below!



Tata!



Practising YOGA!! Love myself in this... At least i don't look fat in there!



Wow... Love this the most!! Hee... Definitely...

Yeah, and i got my idol's new album. So delighted! Anyway, my enetation (comments link) ish out of order. I basically don't know why. Plus my programming skills ish totally not advanced enough to solve it. And i guess i'll just let it be. Or maybe get back to it sometime later. Or even get help from experts. (You should know who you ar... Hee) That's fer today. Hope the pictures ar entertaining enough fer you guys. Do leave your messages in my tagboard!!

It has been some time since i last blog... Tired and stress up recently. Luckily darling ish here to accompany me... Got cell biology common test today... I didn't had much mood to memorise all those... But just manage to conquer it. Hope i can score some kind of acceptable result.

Wednesday, i went out with darling again as usual. Went fer a movie. The medallion. Not bad, funny and entertaining... All those jacky chan stunts buzzing around and this time even superb with him having the ability to fly here and there. Alright, i admit. It's kinda fake. But it's funny... After that we went chinatown fer our dinner. Filled porridge into our stomach. Darling always have the habit of sweating while eating. Guess he's really enjoying his meal. We then went merlion park to look at mars. So pathetic orange star... Small and still small... Really disappointing after all. But don't bother...

Thursday, darling had his hair dyed. Cool colour. Haa... But i can't stop laughing at him. He looks real stunning and different now. Doesn't prick me... I'm gonna get my highlight done tomorrow!! Yeah!

Went back to my secondary school today... Yusof ishak!! Kkays, i won't say it rules. It was teacher's day. But wasn't really feeling well after all. Nearly fainted. Argh, kkays... Weakling girl. I know what you ar saying... But seeing the teachers and meeting my former classmates was so nostalgic... Brought me back memories of the alley and that classroom... I can slowly sniff flavours of warmth. Some pics going down below... Mr Chow ish still real funny... The way he chatted with me ish lyke as if he knew me yesterday. And he can't recognise me. Dear Aishah, she commentted i grew fat the last bbq we had. And today? She said i am too skinny. Must eat more! Haa...

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Another 1 with My favourite chemistry teacher. Mr Chow... And social studies teacher. Mdm Ong...

where ish my enetation?? argh...

Mum gave a hilarious topic off my swollen leg today... She said i didn't hit and torture my new flip-flop fer 3 continuous times. That's what resulted my flip-flops to dis-obey me. Didn't knew Mum was such a lamer. Kkays, maybe i deserve it. Went out with darling today. Walk here and there, everywhere man. Wasn't able to get him his slippers cos' the only size left was too big fer his foot. Went to scotts fer dinner. Shared a bowl of mixed fish noodles and chunky mushroom with darling. Ends up with a cup of honey-dew juice. Then, took a bus to fort canning park. Sat there fer awhile, chit-chat... Guess there's something weird happening around. Kept hearing sounds of animal groaning. And it's real real loud. At first, i thought it's some sort of mechanism sound. But before leaving the park, darling brought me near to the drains. And i can really hear the groaning underneath everywhere real loud. Seems lyke some kind of animal trapped. I mean animalsss... Freaky...

went on this super duper shopping trip today. spent 102 bucks at giordano. a dull brown khakis, black and light blue v-neck top a and another army green top. man, such a freak... spent another 50 plus at charles and keith. got two flip flops. one classic white and the other casual black. both very nice. got another mini skirt at isetan. pretty red. lalala... gotta get my highlight done by next week. tomorrow gonna get darling his topman slippers and my yowei cd.! finally my wishlist ish completing... wow...

Fluid losing,
it leaks from the vision i need,
slides down till it drips,
at the edge of my chin.

It's been that third night,
like i've been curse upon my bed.
Soon i might start losing,
everything i have.
But what do i own?
It doubts so inside.

So terrified now,
i don't wanna lose.
Him especially.

But it itches everytime i think about it,
the sensitive touch i need.
Why can't i stop questioning?
Why can't i be just satisfy?

When will the gray clouds sway away?
When will i find?
What ish actually missing?
Or ish it just too near to feel?

Soon sunlight will breach,
in this small corner of mine.
Hoping what i'm feeling tonight,
was a dream not meant to be true.

You are all of these.
Every individual requires individual needs and you recognize that.You can give them laughter, advice, ears, and gifts.
People love you, cause well... you are perfect.

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yes god, i'm beginning to build up this hatred fer this particular loser. once again, i really dislike the fact i'm feeling this. cos' i seldom am so. i always try to accept people fer who they ar and what they do. but this loser, not gonna mention HIS name ish a real sucking arse-hole. (sorry fer being so rude here, but i'm really pissed off by HIM) HIS actions and verbal attack really itch sometimes. and HE doesn't even tink before spitting out. i guess i'm not the only one now being disappointed by HIM. the whole tension ish building up within the people surrounding me. and if there ish a chance that HE goes far over my limit, HE'LL definitely get it from me. and by hook or crook, hope that HE'LL by then learn his lesson and his irritating attitude perishes...

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let go

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing

Today had my cell biology presentation. It guess it's not bad after all, my oral picking up. Anyway, i went east coast park with my darling today. We reach there around evening and went cycling. Very relaxing and enjoyable. Both of us going through the breeze. Sat at the jetty and chit-chat. Not a bad trip there. Had our private moments in this quiet atmosphere. We cycled fer around an hour or so. Guess we should actually go there often, cos' time spent there seems to be foreva long. The clock ticks a second by another. Slow and smooth. Got very tired on our way back. I slept my whole journey home. Zzz...

So sleepy... Zzz... Me stuffing myself in the school's library now. Actually decided to get home(last night) but change thoughts this morning. You people must be thinking... So fickled minded girl... Ahuh? =P It's Mel here. Mel... Yesterday i had a hard time to actually fall asleep. Talk on the phone with darling until 3 plus. I wasn't angry about anything particular with me. Maybe i was. But maybe i'm not. I fell into deep dreams around 4. Woke up 3 times and turn off my alarm clock 3 times. I always had the trouble of getting up so i have this habit of setting 3 different timings. Just in case i fall back asleep again which i always do. Something weird happened... I forgotten to switch off the silent mode last night. And i could actually wake up in time to shut my alarm when it's silent. No sound? No alarm? How on earth did i got up? And it was not only once but thrice. Superb right. Who knows later i might actually develop this advanced skill and earn the title of timeless woman. Er, i mean girl! Haa.

It's been so long since i last blog. So sorry, was a little too busy this whole week. All thanks to my oral...

Wednesday
Went out with darling, cos' it's a wednesday!! I skipped an prize presentation event which i was suppose to attend and met him. Although things didn't turn out well between me and him at the beginning. But we were still happily together fer the day. Must tell him sorry fer actually being too bad-tempered. Shouldn't have neglected his choices. We ended up at Changi Airport. Had burger king, a definitely filled one.

Friday
ORAL!! This ish damn terrifying. I wasn't really prepared at all. Oh my god, was actually real nervous when i sat there. Knowing the time was near... Haa. However, i started gaining my confidence when i saw middle age aunties taking their oral too. Things went pretty fine, infact, better than i ever imagine. The theme was sort of designed fer me. It's about music!! And i was damn delighted with myself. Although not that fantastic speech i gave, but more than enough to actually obtain the results i need. Yeah!

Ahuh, bean accompanied me to the examination school and we went out after that. Went to habour front, chinatown, clake quay and boat quay. Many places right? Picture above taken by him. Found the scenery real nice. Hence, it's up there! We did quite a few miles of walking. Really tired when i got home. Nearly fall asleep while doing my cell biology project. A tiring but kinda enjoyable day. And i would lyke to say sorry to my cell biology teacher, fer actually falling asleep during her lecture. She even ask me about this when i went to talk to her. Hee, was a little too tired.


Another picture we took at the north-east line. An image of us. Special way of shooting right?

Saturday
Today ish a real special day. It's me and darling's third month together. Our day didn't actually work out well. We nearly quarrelled but again nonetheless, things went back well. I guess it's just so sweet of him to tolerate my mood swing. I was a little crazy with my assignments and projects piling up. Things got really tense up in my mind especially that my tests ar burging up and soon it's common test week. argh, everything ish moving real fast. Too fast, until there's nothing you could actually grab hold of. Back to the main event going on. We caught The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen at plaza singapura. I shall rate it 4 out of 5 stars. It's not a bad film. Really nice and interesting. Something lyke the ancient version of X-men 2. With mutants lyke human. Before the movie, we went to ate cream puffs and ramen. Then we went pizza hut to try out the new 'cheeze pizza'. Taste quite good, very cheezy and chewy. Something you will never get sick of.


Took a picture of it. Looks yummy doesn't it?

After the movie and meals, we went to clarke quay. Sat there only fer awhile and it started to rain. The funniest thing happen. It was raining heavily. And we were actually trying to catch the last bus. So we breeze quickly towards the bus stop. Halfway while crossing the road, the green man turn red. I told darling not to cross. But he pulled me across, so i ran and... My sandals end up lyke this...



Looks so destructive right. Just imagine my legs stranded upon the road and running my way thru with this sandals flying around lyke a toopid saucer. Anyway, we ended up taking a cab home instead of bus. I didn't really blamed him. And wasn't angry about anything. Cos' it's not my favourite shoe. Hee, so i hope he won't be guilty about it. I just feel that it's so dramatic if someone could actually film down the whole scenerio. Haa.

Anyway, it's our third month together. Feel so close with him now. Really love him lots. And i know he feels the same way too. I just wanna note to him that...

"i'll make sure i'm always there. And you will too. There might be a long way to go and quarrels may hurt, speeches may itch. But it's between you and me that's gonna make everything turn out right. I'm sure hand by hand, we'll craft our pathway together always. One moment and you'll realise we ar meant fer each other. Happy 3 months of you and me!"


Our Legs!! Hee, together fer one!

LOVE YA LOTS DARLING

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Cheese... Fer live... Part of my lovely class and me.!!

Pics had been edited. Go to my photo link to view the full size image of it. And a little more extra pics there. By the way, the link can be found in my introduction at the left hand corner which shows a PEEK-A-BOO.

Monday, July 21, 2003
Everything on my mind now ish work work work. Hee. Actually i'm not really sure if i'm coping well with my studies. Guess results gonna show during my common test. I might flunk my cell biology. But not a bother, i'll try my best. Give it the shot. Hope i can get help from my classmates.
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2 weeks ago, i was just commenting that i might flunk my cell bio. but luckily my hard work was paid off. i manage to score 82 upon 100. so happy man. my nights of reading and understanding all there. although not the highest, but i'm pretty delighted fer my first try. after seeing that i always go blank when my tutor kept popping me with questions. it makes me seem really arse stupid. haa. kkays, enough of that. next tuesday ish my organic and biological chemistry test, hope i can pass with a slightly good grade.
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Yan said this in her blog.
I won't deny that sometimes i really admire Melissa..She has the guts to say how she feels..and what she thinks..
And whenever there's problem, she'll spit it out with that person..Then solve it..
I can't..I never be able to do that..I put too many things into consideration before i do something..Causing
as a habit..i'd run away whenever i face problems..
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just lyke what i replied her, she really makes me sound so direct classic style. er, i partially agree with them. i always feel that i need to actually cross those barriers to speak my mind out. straight-forward sagittarus. that's what i'll most of the time tell others, although my boyfriend never agrees with my statement. but i still think i am. kkays, actual fact. maybe fer the first period of things, i might keep to myself. but after tolerating to a extreme extend. the fumes let off and it's the time i'll just spit out everything. clear and direct. not wanting or meant to hurt. just a click and solve things out. there ar also times i'll never think before speaking which makes words sound really piercing.
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school's getting more lively with my classmates around. took some pics today. will be shown as soon as possible. i've some sort decided to get into band again. just can't stop telling myself to resist that temptation of performing and playing the flute. my lifetime dream. but i'll see to it. hope i can actually adjust time well.

by the way, HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!! TO SINGAPORE!!

gonna be real busy soon. tests and projects started burging up. actually those projects ar kinda useless and will never help much. lyke the one fer CATS. what kinda of stupid lessons fer creativity thinking. more lyke those taken in primary schools. IT projects ar also more or less useless. or should i say in-practical. if that ish the way to prove what we really know. i just feel it's really a total pull-off. hope this period gets over soon. coming week of study break and common test week. i really don't mind fer this. cos' this ish the time i really wanna know how stable can i be.

it's so fast and a month since i step into this poly life. i only can say that everythings just zooms off in lightning.

just got home not long ago. went out with darling again. we went ps then to compass point. met up qiyan fer dinner too. had a tight meal and nice chat. after all this, me and darling headed to marina to get the puma tee that i've been eyeing. we end up getting two tees, his XL and mine a L. so nice, so sweet. love him lots.~ muacks.

argh... she destroyed all the whole style of jumper's world. craze, she's lyke a head shorter than me or even more. maybe she's 145 or 150. shucks, the whole jumper's ish lyke all the way down. 3/4's becoming long pants. and the top she match within, terrible. a long tank top can't work in it. argh, i tink she ish those kind that let fashion kill her overnight. man, this agony makes me wanna grab a jumper's skirt by this wednesday and let her know what ish following fashion the right way all about.

Fer Bean, My Friend.
Love ish sometimes unexpected, filled with roses but at the same time thorns. Lyke once you said. Love can be the sweetest dream you have and the worst nightmare you fear. Learning to let go will make life much easier. Neglecting those harsh and hurtful words and put yur mind onto those sweet memories you once have with her. Hold on to that everlasting love you people once tried yur best to grab on. Write into words. Sing into tunes. Make yur life more beautiful with the people that ish still around to comfort ya.

i'm having this terrible high fever moving from 38.1 to 38.3 then now 38.6?? Argh... Save me. I still got lyke 2 test due next week. I can't get sick. No i can't!!