i feel lyke tearing everytime he pinches my 'fats' and talks about it. sensitive and trying hard to eat lesser.

i just saw something uber similar, i wonder if it's the same person. hrmp... i really hope not.

just got my very belated vday's chocolates from yang today. thanks chem sharks fer them! and the blessings too. (=

baby got me this last friday to spur up ma motivation fer school. (i think* at least that's what he told me.) in better terms, it's fer the 24th. lovelies.

finally finally. i can create a new post. argh, this ish so irritating. blogger ish darn weird these days, even my post doesn't get publish immediately.

it's lyke 3am now and i'm halfway done with my urban history assignment.

sometimes i hope time goes by slower and we could enjoy the moments better together.

missing the boy.*

i had problems blogging.

i dunch know why but i just simply can't log into the page of a new post. irritating. i had to take some useless post i published originally and edit the date (so it would come out as a new post.)

Adeline's 21st!! Happy birthday girl, you have been this really precious part of my life and will continue to be forever till we have pinics together... i love you baby.





her cake.



the present we got her. oh yeah, we even got her a piece of sexy lingerie initially.

candid shots from yan.







the birthday girl.



meiling!



qiyan.





sucha blur pic.



daisy. she was my flute partner fer quite sometime during YI days.



the infamous boy.



the 4 sisters!!





i think this giant makes me look short and bloated. dots.



see what i meant?



me with ma heels towering over adel. haa.

i had a long busy day. was at simlim in the afternoon, river valley road next, collin's gathering at his friend's place, round and round in jurong, vivo, then to adel's place, and cafe del mar after. ma feet hurt so badly with those new heels. was walking barefooted after cafe del mar.





i'd say it's a lovely place to chill.

blissful*

i hate writing things on the blog. it merely means keeping them as a memory and removing them from reality.

the 2nd day of cny, i had quite a day entertaining guests.



our generation of cousins.





my younger cousin. she looks preety here!

ma old room!

and the study table...

became

ma old bed,

turn into one cozy daybed!

absolutely love this from robinsons.

he's still the painter of my life. thanks fer the rainbows.

just got home catching pro-te-ge. caught the flu virus and i'm having difficulty breathing now.

*i used to be always there fer ya but i'm now no longer able to.

what's with blogger these days? ma post ain't coming up right after i @!#@!$ them. damn.

reunion dinner was the usual. i had 1 whole abalone alone this time though. blood bleeded twice today, ma poor finger. caught follow the laws and i say it's the hilarious cny routine! i'm going to be a mugger tml.

i'm near penniless. shopping with gfs. got two BLACK tops today, 1 freshlook contact lenses, spree fer 1 white/gold top last night.

mum ish going to scramble me all over tomorrow morning if she finds out that everything ish black and that includes my heels. wanted to get this lovely white heels today but they always run out of my size. damn!

so this piggy year, i'm having new black tops, black dress, black heels, black necklace, black bag.

baby kept telling me that we're just afraid to wear red and to think about it, maybe now when i'm so in love with grey, gold, black, royal blue.

but forget abt it, i think i'm so matching to my room! afterall i'm spending the whole cny at home this year. what the heck.

mummy ish cute today. she said 'waah, the auntie so hao xin. delivered the package up.' and so i replied her, 'mum, i paid 2.20 fer that hao xin you're talking about.'

no more buying after this cny! i'm so waiting fer my dkny bedelicious. hais. people gonna have new fragrance fer cny but i'm still stuck with my issey miyake (though i'm still totally in love with it and i still have another new 100ml).

oh yeah, had dian xin at imperal treasure today. treat from the birthday boy. thanks alot. but it reminds me of the blue cheese steak. can't stop laughing over that waitress who kept calling, alex! supa personalized service, you kantang.

he wrote me a letter and dedicated a song. ah touched*

Hold on, little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up, little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blue
Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
Wake up, who cares about
Little boys that talk too much?
I seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blue
Just to be the next to be with you

Why be alone
When we can be together, baby?
You can make my life worthwhile
And I can make you start to smile

When it's through, it's through
Fate twist for both of you
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold...

if you ar wondering how my vday was spent, i would say it ain't good. i was rushing my book review the previous night. slept fer less than 3 hours, woke up fer my presentation, school till 9pm and the rest, i shan't comment about the rest. seriously, i wasn't expecting a thing but as simple as it was, i didn't felt that it went right, and i ended up being 'childish' (i still didn't thought i was childish, i just wanted to sleep in peace.) with one vodka to end the misery in bed.

and what concludes vday? that i'm not understanding enough. i know i know. maybe not now, not when the effort cannot be visualise.

ma confidence ish just left down the drain.

5.51pm* gawd, and i'm trying hard to breathe now.

sometimes spending yur 100% effort to do something might result in just 10% of mere fullfillment.

i regret spending moolahs on worthless people.

the ideal vday gift.



Swarovski I Love You
Clear crystal bear with Jet crystal eyes and nose; balloon in Kakadu Red crystal.

i've never been interested in crystals. but this lovely kirs bear caught my eye the other time i went shopping with collin and cabin. lovely!

this ish fer someone special.

no cny clothes and cashless. birthday gifts pounding on ma poor bank account. money all spent on the room, leaving me fat and ugly fer cny. so tell me now, how's cny gonna be? disastrous i bet.

after cny, i'm determined to

1) start my jogging routine. i wanna lose weight so badly. go down to 42kg and the next thing someone's ever gonna tell me ish 'mel, you've SLIM down!' and 'skinny, i lyke'. the 2nd one was just less than a month ago, but i think i need more.

2) have someone to spell things out to me.

3) lose weight.

4) lose weight.

5) and lose weight!

lost in self confidence...

who wants to go on an urban history walk of singapore tomorrow? you're jolly welcome to give me a call. i'm really tired. i guess i need the rest.

caught half nelson last night with alex. i didn't tot it was as good as it's rating. you know times when you expected more and got lesser. but the show was its peak just with its monotonous tune.

but why half nelson?*

ish it not enjoyable anymore or it's because i'm not allowed to?

the matrimony with yan last night. i wouldn't say it's darn freaky cos' most of the time... as you might have expected, we were basically watching with our eyes covered. but i guess if you stare blank into the screen, there's 80% chances you'll scream lyke hell. cos that's what we did.

zara's new collection ish totally yummy.

i'm struggling cos you finally made me realise how significant i wasn't. i knew i was stuck in a packed of lies, but then again, it's constitutes to how much i just want to live in ma comfort zone. i wasn't willing to have someone telling me that what i've preciously given was just bullshit to another. it comes back empty handed and that feeling sucks. i'm really tired of thinking who does what and fer whatever motives. i tot i knew clearly of one but yet foolishly accepting all the frauds. let's just keep it as a neat pack of memoirs and life continues normally from now on.

i wanna catch half nelson. and i know there's only one person interested in this film.

i'm a good girl. i've just finish reading through biochem notes. hrmp, and i'm still waiting fer the webcastS to be out. patience running out. thurs and fri went past lyke one breeze, the freedom of a long weekend.

the room just needs 4 more mirrors, frames up, new dustbin.

still wondering abt my curtains. hrmp...

ma room ish filled with mirrors now. lovely...

i was telling collin, share a gift and give me a nose job voucher on my 21st. thankew. i'm superficial and i want ma new nose.

i dunch wanna drift away from my friends.