ebaying ish sooooo tiring but i love it! and vintage satchels ar kwute! they ar soooooo my mama style.

was going thru forensic science notes. yeah. 3 plus in the morning and there it tags memories.

why did i ever thought that i was good enough? no, maybe i didn't. i did felt inferior all the time and yes, i've been telling and doubting myself all the time. it was just soooo foolish of me. and no, i'm not strong enough though they kept telling me that i'm cooping well. i'm weak and i wanna someone to tell me the truth. i'm weak and i wanna someone to take care of me. i want someone to catch me when i'm falling. i want someone to look at the empty sky with me. i want someone to look at the wrong side of the sunrise with me. i want someone to share my tears. i want someone to be true to me regardless if the truth was hurting.

now i wanna this custom made dress fer d and d. urrrrrrrrrrrrrr............

and so some ask, why did you ever even wanted to jump out of yur shelter? why don't ya wanna just stay and get the all love and comfort you can cherish. yesh, i did cherish all the love king gave to me and i never ever took them fer granted though i maybe always demanding fer more. but i always think that love doesn't only compromise of love. and this ish especially true when people age. if things were that hard to work it out, why should leave both in the torture? and it hurts to see king always giving in to me all the time.

now i'm too tired to continue typing. i just wanna drive out now... sobs...

sometimes i'm so unclear of what i really want and need, i'll wish that life and people would push you along in the right way.

but when i'm so clear of what i want and need, they will never give it the way i wanna it to be.

i love this song to core. weeeeeeee...

Bob Sinclar feat. Gary Pine - Love Generation

From Jamaica to the world,
It's just love,It's just love,Yeah!

Why must our children play in the streets,
Broken hearts and faded dreams,
Peace and love to everyone that you meet,
Don't you worry,
it could be so sweet,
Just look to the rainbow, you will see
Sun will shine till eternity,
I've got so much love in my heart,
No-one can tear it apart,
Yeah,

Feel the love generation,
Yeah, yeah, yeah,
Feel the love generation,
C'mon c'mon c'mon c'mon yeah,
(Whistling.....)

Feel the love generation,
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Feel the love generation,
Ooohhh yeah-yeah,

Don't worry about a thing,
It's gonna be alright,
Don't worry about a thing,
It's gonna be alright,
Don't worry about a thing,
It's gonna be alright,
Gonna be, gonna, gonna, gonna be alright,

(Whistling.....)

bimbo: buy me this! buy me this please? urrrrrrrrrrrr...



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i was looking through every single entry of my blog (another 2 months and it's 3 years!) searching fer the things i wanna see.

and meanwhile, i realise that i was kinda evil fer 05' and maybe i shall stop being one.

some i found while reading.

"i know there's no use crying... tears doesn't help when people doesn't realise that they ar precious." (Saturday, October 09, 2004)

"anyone knows black magic? could i just burn everything into ashes and mix it with v coke and gulp it all down?" (Tuesday, October 05, 2004)

30. How would you react if the person you like rejected you?
An: Who wouldn't feel sad? But i will never show my love fer him first unless he tells me he love me? (Saturday, September 11, 2004)

I miss the stars badly. Meaningfully, i'm missing some stuffs badly... (Saturday, September 04, 2004)

there ish nothing right or wrong in a relationship that goes wrong. blaming ish not the thing we should do during departure. at least don't waste the time at it. cos it's still best if we keep hold to beautiful memories that was once shared and let it stay shining fer-ever. (Saturday, August 21, 2004)

i'm really beginning to miss poly life. and year 3 was really an empty year cos everyone was simply too busy and there were loads of trashing assignments/projects/tests/presentations. i'm losing track with all my friends and this feeling ish not really comfortable. i'm walking pass with people missing one by one in my life.,which i do not really want it to happen. graduating ish not always fun. maybe i should not have been too tied down fer the 3 years. somehow i just felt that i've lost alot of things becos of over-concentrating on one particular. times lyke this, you'll just wish that the U accepts you and you'll walk over the same route again but with a different perspective of life. but then again, i'm still blinded by the things i want to do, need to do and able to do. i miss every single bit of my poly life so dearly. and friends, please stop coming and go.

vday!

why do life put us in situations that we do not lyke? if i've known the ending, life would be so much happier and easier now. so what if the beginning was more than a fairy tale? i would rather things stay the same way as before. but sadly, there ar things we couldn't control and consequences we cannot predict. so taaa daaa, what's left now? smiling and tackling the problem that only exist to "myself".

oooh, i tot that spring was over in a week. why does singapore seem so summer at this point of time. spring has just arrived and i still want my leaves to fall while me strolling at fort canning park.

i need to go shopping so badly. even if it's only in singapore.

love ish of 1 pleasure and a thousand sufferings. but then again, i've learnt to only look at the minimal pleasure just to forget all the sufferings.

"my boyfriend ish type B" ish urrrrrrr, so romantic. i just wanna a fondue night with my beloved.

and so vday ish tml. i'm most probably at home cracking my brain fer bioinformatics.

hrmp, so who shall that fcuk tee go to now?

photos galore. but then again, i'm just being bored.


picture taken last week when i was stuck in misery. i don't look a inch of it do i? thanks to xin. but that's the only smile i had fer the week.

below ar all signs of narcissism.






love my hair and hate my nose.

i love this pic the most. muacks.


and this too.

and lastly, vday bao fer all lo. yam and sweetcorn flavour. haa.

new wishlist. there's so many things you want in life and i don't wanna add things i wish i had but will not reach upon at this age of life. so there you go, the revise version of my wishlist. and ya, gifts i'm gonna get fer myself this vday. ya know, pamper yurself if no one does. kees. (=

1) Issey Miyake Perfume.



2) My missing Evanescence CD.
3) A trip to Fort Canning Park. (too bad it's summer now)

i wanna study medicine and it's not fair. poly students cannot study medicine in singapore. darn, they don't even give you the big fat chance. sometimes when you ar too clear of what ya want and yet you will never be able to get it. eeeeks, so irritating. who says diploma students ar much more valuable now?

i spent 18 continuous hours to complete my final year report and wooooooow, it's done. weeeeeeeeee... all i think about now ish enjoying the company of my friends when school officially ends.

i'm beginning to miss my friends. and preferably the company i have in school all day. urgh... miss everyone lots. hope i do not sobs on the last day of school.

little did i know that the heart warming feeling i recieved was just only the minimal that was given. silly wasn't i? but all i did was to be true with my words and actions. claps*

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, i've been craving fer steak and ramen ever since. yummy. i love the meals i had the whole day. 4 main meals with 4 bars of chocolate and 2 candy sticks. now i want my macs.

gotta go back with fyp report. freaky!

please get me genetically modified roses captured at metaphase! haa.

do not always trust the "ah neh". haa. damn funny and lame lo. i love times lyke this. right, xin?

i have no lessons next tuesday, what a joke.

bring me shopping! i wanna get this fcuk salior tote. i do not know the reason. but i'm just attracted to it.

btw, the old main pic ish to remind everyone that valentine's ish coming soon. ignore the sentence below though and enjoy. cos love ish suppose to be wonderful anyway.

let's drown sorrows aside with shopping. now i want this pencil dress from asos.com

i guess my memory ish falling badly. one moment i wanna do this, the next moment i forget about it. one moment i wanna search fer something in google, the next moment i forgotten the topic. if only there ar certain things that i could forget with a blink. i wish i could and i'm trying really hard.

i walk along the streets and wonder what's on my mind. blank*

in the middle of the road, i'll ask myself. so is it green man or not?

school's getting really tough and though it's not lyke it's too much that i couldn't handle, it's my mind that's no longer working the way i want it to. at times lyke this, i do hope the mind would work over my heart.

i was out so frequently fer the past week and staying at home today makes me feel ultimately out of place. i'm feeling terrible, horrible, vegetable (anyone caught i'm not stupid at 10.30 channel 8?). argh. there's practically no one i could talk to now. how i hope it's only the monthly aunt racking up.