blargh... haa. i'm so true with my words. and i'm sooooo sensitive enough to predict the happenings. i had jolly well seen/guess what's going on to yur life and yet you agrued with me previously that i don't even know you. look now then, who's the winner? heck, but i don't care about winning. i'm sure you still read this blog and please be clear that i'm the one who can read thru yur mind. someone ish in love~ and i knew it long ago. haa.!!

who ish willing to bring me to redang island on my birthday?

i miss him to core okies. don't you ever understand how it feels? i don't need the world to know the truth. i just want my baby back. it may never happen. i might be foolishly waiting. fer love. only fer his love. he may never love me back again. he may have fallen fer others. but i don't give a damn. as long as everything ish so true to me. and my thoughts revolve around him. why bother to let go? i don't care no matter how many times i get no replies when i tell him i'm missing him lots. i know it hurts cos it makes me feel lonely. but as long as my message ish pass through, i'm pleased and glad. i love him. and it's now and forever.

the horoscope says i'm going to have a romantic weekend. but why am i stuck at home without him?

chalet details? not now. not tomorrow. not gonna talk about it. just too lengthy to talk about everything. all you need to know ish that i had fun cycling the whole night, i fell twice, my chicken wings were not bad fer the first time frying, my leg cramp so badly on wednesday night, i slept on tables, chairs, floor on wednesday night, i played monopoly twice and won twice, i drank soya sauce with water and the taste totally sucks, i'm back home and thinking of what to do next.

i need to sell my dad tyres now.
i need to find a job now.

my aunt visit ish due soon. so don't try to piss me off in days to come.

i'll talk hastily on a certain matter tomorrow.

got my hair crop today. finally. but it's not really that short afterall. might be a lil to difference. although it's 3 inches away. had a new fringe. still alright with it. and i bought a professional ceramic straightener from the salon. finally a list off the wishlist.





and i'll not be blogging till friday. cos i'm off to class chalet!! gonna have fun!

seriously i have to confess that my thoughts did flew away in the mid of my exam papers. infact the last 3. i don't really know why but there ar times, his image just came into my mind. the stuffs that i did to him, the sad memories, all in all. they just flow in lyke nobody's business. i can't stop to sober whenever i pass through the youth park. cos i know that's where he cried fer me badly on that particular day. oh gosh, i feel so damn fcuking bad.

i'm super lazy and tired to blog. so wait.

gosh, i had merely 2 hours of sleep last night and i went to school fer my last paper. the reason i'm talking boring stuffs starting from the beginning of my journey to school was becos that i wanna comment something that had happened in the bus. puke!! that girl who sat beside me smells exactly lyke super yucky plastic flower. i dunno how to describe it. i wonder what perfume she uses. but it really sting* so badly that i kept on rubbing my nose.

oooooooooooooooooooooooooooh, exams ar over.

my grade-wishlist

1. Analytical Biochemistry - A
2. Instrumentation - A
3. Cell Culture And Tissue Applications - B+
4. Advanced Cell Molecular Biology - A
5. Spanish Basic - A+
6. Introdution To Financial Planning - C

went out today to celebrate yixin's birthday. woo hoo, we ate at hisatomo. eeeks, the standard drop a hell damn lot. and the menu was so dead. i guess they ar trying hard to survive. plus that waiter was damn weird.

after, we went shopping. got into the new shop forever 21 in wistma. the skirts and undies ar damn nice. gonna go back there once i have the money. wanna get myself at least two mini skirts.

forever21 was doing a show. and i manage to take a pic with the host.

taka was having this unique sincere watch fair. we went in to peep at beautiful and super ex watches. on our way out, we saw professional models. and that guy was such a hunk. he really could mesmerize girls' heart. even yahui was attracted by him.

this part was whereby we caught his attention. he was so sweet. he even called us to take pictures with him. haa. but there was too many people around. and we didn't wanted to catch extra attention.

i did said i was lazy. so i guess my content ish little. holidays ar coming. i'm so afraid of boring days. i hope there's something fer me to do. i really wanna get a job cos i need money fer a special present.

and lastly, this adidas cap ish cool. but i guess it can't be found in singapore.

seriously, i've this very weird feeling fer the first time. it makes me wonder whether i've studied. but i guess the problem ish with the lecture notes. not me. first, i think i've read thru my notes but next moment, when i start doing the past year papers. i get this super 'i don't know a thing and i'm gonna get a big fat zero' feeling. some of the questions don't tally with the stuffs you learn. as in the answers ar not found in the lecture notes. it's more of reading out of the book and knowing more things. thinking more and out of the box. i hope i can survive. first, i need to get to bed by 3 am. cos i fcuking need to wake up at 6.30 am tml. what i really wish now ish to be able to fall asleep cos i've been staying up till 5 am fer the past few days. come on, where's my baby? come and coax me to bed.

ooh, i realise this time while doing papers. i'm did thought smartly of ways to tackle questions i actually have no clue on. so unlike me in the past to just memorise and write down everything. instead i'm understanding and doing questions smartly. just hope it helps to fer my two remainding papers!! i'm gonna be free soon.

i've not been studying. i've not been studying. whine~ i'm panic and even panic. i actually wanna do some big postie about today's get real's show. but i'm not gonna do that now. cos i'm super duper guilty fer not studying. can someone bring me to a rural house and chuck me there with my instrumentation and ccta notes, 1000 candles, 5 cup noodles. take my handphone, my money, my radio, inform my family and friends just in case. and remember to pick me back to school on friday morning. i need to reach school by 8.30 am. thanks.!

yesterday at 3 am. i was still smiling when i first saw my ABC CA grade. but today after today's exam, i can only pray fer my A. oooh, hate the irritating invigilator. he keeps mumbling and mumbling the same stuffs over and over again. bless him that i don't know who he ish. if not his photo will be here today, in my blog. noisy pest.


haa. classy grumbling face of mine.

If you love someone, let him go, if he returns for you, he is meant to be yours, if he does not, he was never yours to begin with. Yet I wouldn't wanna let go, for I fear the one I want will not return.

*a edited quote i got from a blog i came upon.

seems so true fer me.

mel ish studying... so you better do too. blargh.

dee-a-ding-dong

oooh.. i tell ya what i hate now. 2 things.

1. The natural hair curls and waves i inherited from my dad.
2. BITCHES OR BIMBOS who have no sense of ORIGINALITY!

just edited some pics. okies, i'm not studying. but don't blame me okies. i feel guilty enough.

gosh, i don't feel bad now. but i feel damn bored. bored of my boring life. i'm only 17 going 18. but i'm sick of my life. why? can i skip everything now and move forward to my life in 8 years later?

oooh, a lil bit to share about how my life would be in the future.

i wanna get married at the age of 26. that's fer sure. on the date, 20-12-2012.

i wanna my two kids to be a december babe and january hunk.

i wanna work and not get stuck at home to be a dumb housewife.

i wanna love my husband to core and enjoy intimate pleasure with him every now and then.

i wanna go on holidays with my whole family.

i wanna bring my mum overseas and dote her lyke how she did on me.

i wanna share everything with my lovely brother and get a girlfriend fer him if he doesn't have one.

i wanna my girl to learn the flute and my boy to play the piano.

i wanna die at the age of 65. and nothing could ever change that.

hrmp. i totally slack my day off. woke up early to wait fer lianghua and yahui to arrive. we didn't study much. instead we were playing with ralph and lee yo all the time. bad students. and we took photos again. itchy fingers. hee.



yahui and my brother.



lianghua and my brother. they were fighting. haa.



sister and brother hur...



one big family!!



silly.



lee yo.



shall end today's post with my self portrait again.. ( will post later before i sleep again. hope i'll have a topic to talk about by then.)

gosh, i found out that i sound kinda childish in my previous post. damn...

time ish 4.04am.
am not studying.
am not sleeping.
am not lying.
am missing of something.
or to be more specific, someone.

time ish 4.30 am.
am editing this.
am adding pics.



far far away. just lyke ...



hur?



now cheer up fer the camera.



sad and gloomy. (but my favourite.)

*claps* fer me! i'm happy that i scored at 50.2% of my overall exam grade with my ca grade. 0.2 marks more than a passing grade. now i just need another 30% to help me score an A. i wanna an A fer acmb badly...

*bish* i've not done what i'm suppose to do today. was supposed to study instrumentation but i didn't. i guess i really don't have the mood.

oh ya, after trying to play pool twice. i guess i really have no talent in it. haa.

i miss him, i wanna catch a movie with him. but he doesn't.

it's really amazing how one song can affect my mood and feelings. i feel the song, the lyrics truthfully. somehow that melancholic voice triggers the memories of the unhappy side of my life. the things i really wanted and love, not meant to be here anymore. the process of needing to let go but the grudge of unwillingness to do so. everything still lingers in my mind. him, him and i guess it will always be him. i won't make a promise of things i can't keep. maybe one day, the whole situation will change. maybe one day, the world around be will leave me with no choice to choose. maybe one day, maybe...

*alan kuo - ling

okies, i'm bad in descriptive essay. so i won't type a hell of details about today's event. went the suntec fer kushin bo. lianghua's treat. haa. thanks alot. it's his birthday!! woooo hooooo...



food. we had a hard time finish the first serving of what we took. haa. the funny part was the girls fighting to push the food around. nobody wants to eat... we even tried to smuggle food to the rubbish bin outside. haa.



lianghua enjoying his food?



my favourite deserts. i ate quite alot. the chocolate cheesecake there was yummy...



yummy...



me and yahui enjoying our tempura.



food again?

kushin bo change quite alot indeed. new items and some really good ones taken away. but it's still a worth it meal especially fer guys who can gobble up chunks and chunks of food. i recommend kushin bo's lunch as compared to yucky sakae's buffet. it cost a few buck more only and it taste better with more varieties.



lianghua and his andy horse. haa. oh, you can call lianghua 'andy'.

okies... we played arcade. dance dance revolution and this new percussion machine. lyke small kids but kinda relaxing from all the exam stress we ar having. halfway through, we went shopping. poor lianghua have to accompany us. girls, can't stop this bad habit... yahui bought my puma slippers. and i went mango... and got myself a brown spag... lace ish back on track and though i hate lace. but i still bought this lovely spag...





after everything, we went to esplandae library fer a lil study and of cos my digital camera did get in handy.





3 of us studying HARD!

xu chun meiS love singapore! haa.

me and lianghua doing stupid poses...







Hide!



Oh no! You caught us...





2 idiots trying to read.

okies. that's all fer the day. reaching bandwidth soon.

hrmp... woke up so early today just fer studying. didn't really study much afterall but at least my doubts about certain questions were solved. okies... narcissism at it's best. (took some photos cos i thought that my dad's belt was quite matching fer my shorts.)


does it seem lyke twins taking photo? (i just did a cut and paste and little did i realise the pictures were quite matching)


does it look better when i auto-balance the colour of the photo?


getting stupid in pose. (i guess i look a lil too bitchy on the right one)

Hrmp... Oooh yeah, sunday i went shopping at my neigbourhood. I know it's a neighbourhood shopping centre yet i spent 5 hours there. Had my favourite black pepper steak at 'Jack's Place'. Stop around and bought myself a pair of slippers fer the coming class chalet. So excited about it. No more boring nights. Haa.

Okies. I realise the price tag was bigger than the other pics. But it's only $10.90!!

Oooh yeah, just in case any of you wanna get me shoes fer my upcoming birthday 19th December (notice it's in BOLD). My UK size ish 6, Us size 7. Haa. Okies, i admit that i'm thick skinned but wait.... I've waited so long fer my birthday to come. And i'm still waiting. Another thing to notice, i'm still 17!! Haa. Young.

Hrmp, while shopping...


I notice that there's two hunks who can't stop looking at me.


And they were really so charming. We locked our eyes together.


I can't believe that i would be in such a situation.


Two unresistable guys somehow falling in love with me.


And of course, i didn't miss the opportunity...


How could i resist the temptation?


Not fer long, we settle down at a corner.


I knew i was in love with them.


Lee Yo And Ralph



Haa. Lovable right? Ralph ish mine and Lee yo ish my brother's.


Hey, I'm camera shine. So stop shooting. I'll blush... Hee.
I guess they love each other's butt so much.


Lee Yo.


Lee Yo doing his splatter...


Ralph.


Ralph in my arms.


Ralph in speed of light.