it's no longer about memories. it's no longer about being lonely. it's about the love. all the love i have fer him. but everything ish gonna change cos i know what he really wants now. i'll never try to put my love into his misery anymore. it takes time... a lifetime.

*oh ya, if YOU don't understand and know what has been going on, don't act lyke you do and instruct people to do things YOU think it's good fer them.

my brother knows i'm sad. so he got me this sweet handmade bracelet from school today.

oh, you guys could try this link.
http://www.bbc.co.uk/science/humanbody/mind/surveys/whatamilike/index.shtml

my result was this...

Your answers suggest you are a Counsellor
The four aspects that make up this personality type are:

reaching out fer a guy's fortune when you don't need it. shame on girls who do that.

i'm dizzy but awake. i'm waiting and waiting fer someone whose phone i can't call through. but it's okay. i'm willing to wait.

can i be tutor? can i be a tutor? oh, come on. i wanna teach e-maths and a-maths!! chemistry too.

some pics i took to celebrate my own lantern festival...


my naughty brother.


buy me this perfume. i love it.


my pretty legs. haa.

okies. i'm vain again. it started from my lift and then home.










some pretty blur ones below.




and then super blur.


haa. that's all. gotta keep some fer my own private collection.

just a post out of this messy blog with no pictures.

today, out of lecture. everyone eye's was on this girl. my phone rang so i didn't really know what's going on until i saw her.

i recalled that i shouted her a crazy mad women the other time i saw her across the road in campus. she was still alright that time. blonde long stips from her un-even poly tail and ding le ding dong on her baggy pants. the second i saw her. it was worst. she was totally in this baby suit of pink. so i guess maybe she's just a pink lover. and oh yeah today. she became lyke this.



but this ish still too good to descibe her. cos this caucasian girl still looks pretty and i guess that's a wig.

this pic ish better to describe how people saw her as.



you know, that kind of expression you'll get. but this mommy ish still not bad. just imagine pink hair in an white asian face.

i guess this pink freako intentionally wanted to look lyke her anime character. maybe some girl lyke this.



somehow she made a big mistake and resulted her looking just lyke zeke the pink.



or even pinkie clownie.



okies. i'm mean and i can't stop laughing. that's all fer the day. if you get to see this her, you'll get the picture of what i'm trying to express here.

True Love
Take The Love Test today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Personality Test Generator.

Cue the Tchaikovsky music--you're in love. If your friends and family members aren't already sick of hearing you talk about your significant other, they will be soon. You are the envy of every single person, so don't flaunt it too much. Enjoy the happily ever after!

* i did this test. but wait. who am i in love with?

he seems happy and i'm glad he ish... guess now i don't mind whether he ish hating me or not. as long as he's comfortable with it. everything's fine fer me.

to judge someone you don't know just by listening to some other's words. that's kinda rude.

*edited on 3.00am

he hurt me badly this time and the worst ish that he doesn't even bothers. and yet he ish pissed and ish building up the hatred. i just wanted to keep things so simple and yet i can't. i never have been expecting anything special and i merely wanted to be treated equally. but that ish so impossible. after all, judging from the situation now. i'm not the one who ish hurting him anymore. he ish the one who ish trashing our friendship deep.

i did tried to salvage everything. but it was totally not accepted. why? if i was so selfish about everything, i wouldn't even bother to be sad over it. why did i call and call but get no response? why did someone else ended up picking up the call. it's all on purpose and sarcastically done. after all my apologies sent. it was partly my fault and yet i'm willing to take all the blame. i totally feel damn left off and sick. i put in my true feelings to stuffs but all i get ish someone hating me even badly. this ish the first time i got such a bad treatment after all the effort i put in. and the first time i actually paid so much attention and did everything just to gain back a friendship that was meant to be. since i'm not appreciated and being sad wouldn't help...... i just gotta be thankful of the beautiful memories.

my grades has been dropping due to non-sensical issue. might be a lil late to realise but since i have the freedom and power to change it now. i will. i will make a come back.

money ish the root of evil. money isn't everything to me. but ish everything to certain people. come to think of it. money causes many many problems. and when people can't judge the value of it. it becomes worst. money hurts feelings especially between friendship. that's ish why since secondary school. i will try to never get entangled with money matters. i used to not bother. but when i did, i would try to make a effort. it would go well if people cooperate. it wouldn't if people don't stand in yur shoes and think about it. but i guess the world ish never fair. and people speak easily but never put in the effort to it.

(below ish a pre-type in my handphone while i was about to sleep last night. written fer today's blog)

yesterday i had a bad day... oh wait, the 2nd part was worst... man (er, i rather call them little boys becos of their immature actions) ar so terrible when they can't get things they want. hmmm, maybe not all. but at least some i've met.

it gets so freaky when guys demand things. even worst when they just grab you without yur acknowledge. don't try to argue with a guy over any matters cos they will never wanna lose and when they know they ar losing, they would just be sarcastic about yur comments. it gets the same when they know they can't get it, they'll get boo boo ga ga over it. don't think that they ar always willing to do something fer you. cos when you don't give them what they want. things might just the other way round.

*and with the witness of me, my friends and the people who read this blog just in case any of 'YOU' did.
i shall announced that yesterday. i've met the worst guy i would ever meet in my life. the WORST out of the whole lot. the shame among the guys.

hrmp. thought of the day.

i really admire those bloggers who could actually spend their patience typing their whole day of wah la la... don't get what i mean? here it ish...

example
today i woke up late. i was supposed to wake up at 8 am. but my stupid alarm didn't manage to wake me up. so i ended up waking up at 9.15 am. was very late fer school. so i rush to bath and took a cab to school. reach school at 10 am. made it just in time fer blah blah blah's lecture. this lecturer ish real boring. basically he just can't teach. so after my lecture. i went to canteen with my friends fer our lunch break. ate chicken rice cos it has been a long time since i ate it. i saw friend a, friend b, friend c and friend d. such a suprise to meet them. after lunch, i went back to practicals at 1 pm. today practical ish about connecting this to 'that'. we had fun times in the practical. and the practical teacher was great. and after practical i was free. i went to the library to wait fer my friend. she/he was supposed to meet me at 4 pm to catch a movie in town. but she/he reached only after that time. i waited fer she/he around 45 mins. she/he was late. while waiting, i spend my time revising my stuffs. exams ar so near and i don't wanna waste my time. i don't wanna rush things last minute. when she/he arrived, we went to the bus stop opposite school and took 74 and 106 to orchard. halfway there, we chatted alot about old times. we reached orchard near evening. then we went lido to get our tickets to dogde ball. the ticket queue was quite short. so we managed to get our tickets very easily ......................

(ps* this ish written by me in imaginary situation. not a cut and paste from elsewhere nor my wah la la life)
(if you happened to read halfway and stop. i'm glad you did that!)

damn it. i can't type anymore. this ish getting so boring even i couldn't stand it. imagine reading all this rubbish even me being the blogger would get so bored after typing. who would wanna read this whole piece of junk. if you say yur blog ish fer yur friends. hrmp, i don't wanna really know in so much detail what actually happen to you everyday. it's so crappy. and it makes the blog so dull. and let's say, you spend yur everyday with yur co-actors and co-actresses in yur blog. you write paragraphs and paragraphs of those situations every single day. and it just happen that those co-actors and co-actresses ar the only ones who read yur blog. wouldn't that be worst? reading tons and tons of text that actually happened to them? oh no, my eye-lids would be falling even after 10 sentences. i'm glad my friends don't do that. so glad.

if you ar reading my blog now, and you're doing this. no offense. and i do really admire you fer yur patience.

if you have read my blog and still doing this. woah... you ar suffering under silent humiliation. by who? by me.

added again* maybe my life ish a little too boring to tell... haa. but anyway, after all i had said. it doesn't mean that bloggers should not write about situations that happen to them. what i dis-agree about ish the full sum of details. okies. no more explanation. if you get me, you'll get what i'm trying to say here.

will not be blogging today. kinda lazy and tired. and damn arse that i'm gonna fail my instrumentation CT2. this sucks okies. i spend sooo many nights. (maybe merely two) but nonetheless, i'm still gonna flunk. that's so sad cos i don't wanna re-test. imagine you've gotta waste yur time again mugging fer a paper you would end up only getting a pass grade.

okies, wait. did i said i will not be blogging today? hrmp.... haa.

i will be loved. won't i? hrmp...

new wishlist*

(regarding the pop-up thingy which ish darn irritating. just keep clicking no. and that would end it)

listen. i don't wanna be mean here. but damn it. i hate her (click on the link) to core!! she ish the worst and most unfriendly technical officer i ever seen before in my life. though i haven't got my diploma. i don't understand why must she act lyke she has did more than diploma. infact, poor clara auntie. you ar only just a diploma holder. it doesn't make yur status higher than me by any sense. unless you curse hard that i'll fall out of this remaining a year and half course.

if you guys wondering if i'm too evil. come to think of it, even my friends hate her. it's just that i practically dares to shout out to her.

just lyke yesterday's incident. i finished cleaning my cheese cloth and i was so kind enough to place it on the sink she wanna keep on. i went back to my seat. she went to the sink and started calling for cheese cloths to be place in the box she's holding in her hand. then she asked whose cheese cloth was that. standing 10 m away. i claimed it's mine. this damn clara standing only less den a metre infront of it don't wanna stretch her hand fer less den 30 cm to just get that cheese cloth. she instructed me instead to walk 10 m to her and place in the box. what kinda of person ish she? idiotic bitch who just thinks that she could actually act so bossy cos we ar in her so called 'lab'. dear clara auntie, that's not the way things work.

stupid pics i took in the library today. boring day...

it's good to be home early!!! but still gotta slog hard later... cos my CT 2s and practical exam ar arriving soon. exams too lo... damn scary!!

today in cell culture lab we got to kill an unborn chick and mesh it into bits and pieces. thank goodness! i'm not the one slaughtering it. if not i guess i'll need to take vegetarian meals fer this few days...


alvin doing that discusting job.

poor thing. it's still alive when we dig him out from it's shell.

cut it's head off. yucks! mesh up into pieces. that's cruel!

this ish damn funny... i found it from links to a blog... check them out. malaysian idol. what the?

http://www.rotiprata.net/images/funny.wmv

http://www.trance-tech.com/vids/WickedMoments.wmv

went out with some of my class members to k box today. had a nice time singing but i think i'm falling sick. bad huh. and there ar sooooo many tests coming. i hate them.

some pics to share...


Weiming And Lianghua

Lianghua doing his pose of the day.

Finally, me and lovely 'sa da jie' Yahui!

it's 1.01 am and i'm so in need of love. maybe i'm feeling too bored or lonely. but blargh...

i want my prince charming to appear and him to

love,

dote, care,

kiss,

hug,

share the sunshine, pour and rainbow with me.

i want to spend my everyday, everything, every moment (sweet, bitter, sour), every minute and every second with him. i want to cook breakfast, lunch and dinner fer him, be the first one he sees when he awakes, calm him down whenever he ish not feeling good, make him smile and laugh with my silliest actions, keep him happy, be his best bud always, love him tender and most importantly take good care of him.

but nothing could ever get perfect. he would never appear. and what i could only do ish to wish fer the

stars to guide my way.

but who would ever fall fer a girl lyke me? i'm a bitch in disguise and a witch in my past life. i'm so mean with my words though it's always because i'm straight-forward. i have too many mood-swings.

i cry too much.

i have a bad temper. i'm un-reasonable when it comes to quarrels. i'm fcuking evil when i get angry. (ask my ex. i'm sure he will agree to it) so, i'll shall mention again, who would fall fer a girl lyke me?

hrmp... i said i'll post photos. so here ish it?



a girl who simply loves to talk on the phone.



my eyes. i love them. so deeply in thoughts.

01. What is your name?
An: Melissa. Just in case you want my full name. It's Melissa Lee Huay Er.
02. What colour pants are u wearing right now?
An: Black. Black is so sexy right? Haa.
03. What are you listening to right now?
An: My Favourite radio station. Perfect 10.
04. What are the last four digits of your phone?
An: Why must i tell and what's the use of telling?
05. What was the last thing you ate?
An: Sweets. Strawberry Flavoured. Not my favourite though.
06. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be?
An: Hrmp. Black, White.
07. Where do you plan to go on your honeymoon?
An: I want some place romantic. Better with superb night view just outside my hotel room.
08. How is the weather right now?
An: While i was asleep 3 hours ago. The wind blew in so wildly and i could feel water droplets. Now? It's damn hot!
09. Last person you talked to on the phone?
An: Ujin. No one else calls me on a saturday.
10. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
An: Nose. Height. Dressing.
11. Do you like the person who sent you this?
An: How could i lyke someone i don't even know. I just took this crap from somewhere to cure my boring day.
12. How are you today?
An: I hope i'm getting refreshed. Cos i've slept fer 14 hours straight since last night.
13. Your favourite drink?
An: Vanilla Coke, Ice Lemon Tea, Pink Dolphin, Peel Fresh's Fruits And Vegetables.
14. Your favourite alcoholic drink?
A: I don't have a lyke in alcohol but i don't mind trying.
15(a). How do you eat an Oreo?
An: That ish a stupid question to ask. But i only eat the biscuit without cream.
15(b). Strawberry Shortcake, cake ?
An: Huh...
16. What's the next CD you're going to get?
An: Maroon 5's.
17. Eye Colour?
An: Brown. That's So Asian right.
18. Do You wear contacts?
An: Definitely.
19. Favourite month?
An: December cos my birthday ish 19th december.
20. Favourite food?
An: Black pepper steak. Salmon Sashimi. Tom Yam Soup. Udon. And many more!
21. Last movie you watched?
An: Garfield
22. Favourite day of the year?
An: What's with this question? How would i know?
23. Are you shy to ask someone out?
An: Never. Why should i be?
24. Your zodiac sign?
An: Sagittarus.
25. What would lyke to change now?
An: My hairstyle.
26. Would you want to fall in love now?
An: Not now. But i would lyke someone to love me now.
27. What type of people do u dislike the most?
An: Tons of shit. I hate arrogant peeps, bitchy girls, people who crap but never seem to talk sense, girls who try so hard to pluck a 'cute' seed inside their heart, sluts who goes clubbing just to be molest, women who think that their boobs ar the only able focus in their pics, guys who rapes.
28. What type of guy/girl are you interested in?
An: Someone smart enough fer me to lean on. Cheerful and fun-loving. Extrovert. Romantic. Charming. Non-smoker.
29. What would you do to impress a guy/girl that you like ?
An: Hrmp. Show him the most realistic part of me. (Big bully to him, my mood swings flows lyke nobody's business, funny girl with the most stupid actions done, being straight-forward)
30. How would you react if the person you like rejected you?
An: Who wouldn't feel sad? But i will never show my love fer him first unless he tells me he love me?
31. Would you die for someone you love?
An: Is this some kind of practical drama joke? Dumb arse. There wouldn't be a chance to die fer him. Just pray fer his leave and keep him in yur mind fer-ever. That should be it.

*this makes me even boring. better cut off now.

Olympus AZ-1

i wanna this digi cam!! i saw it from a commercial found in 'today'.

Sensor
CCD, 3.2 million effective pixels
Lens
• 3x optical zoom (folded lens)

Digital zoom
Up to 2.7x

Movie clips
• 320 x 240, 15 fps, unlimited, with audio

• 160 x 120, 15 fps, unlimited, with audio
File types
• Still: JPEG

• Movies: MOV (Quicktime Motion JPEG)

LCD monitor
• 2.5" TFT reflective• 215,000 pixels

Direct Print
PictBridge

Dimensions
94 x 67 x 22 mm (3.7 x 2.6 x 0.8 in)

*some functions i'm interested.

i sold my swatch watch fer 20 bucks today at our lsct's bazaar... whew... it's free anyway and it doesn't suit me at all. but i guess money just can't stay in my wallet with me that long ahuh... i got these stuffs at quite a good rate...

hrmp... basic steps to kill a lab mouse!



first, use the forceps and hold down the neck.
beware that it jumps up.
and it'll start to pee so this could get quite messy.



next... pull it's tail hard to break it's spinal cord. so that it's respiration cycle can't continue.
don't shiver (the mistake i did) or cry.
cos the longer ya hold it. it'll suffer cos there won't be instant death fer it.



next, pray. and you may began to dissect it.

yesh... i scarifice a mice today fer my practical. i killed it with my bare hands. and i made it's pain and death so draggy. that's so beastly of me! sobs...

today while i was walking my way to the bus stop. something came into my thought out of no where.

when will this blog end? when would be the last bloggie session i'll make?

ans :

1. when blogger fails and shuts on me once and for all...
2. the day i decides to go hiatus and never be back.
3. when you can no longer find me. missing*
4. the day i'll cry out loud and say this ish not the life fer me.
5. when there's this huge thrust of pain forcing through my heart and i'll quit by then.
6. the day a heavy rain poured, sunshine & rainbow came right infront of my vision.
7. the moment stars meet and i'll tell him. "te amo"

got a piece of pink junk fer my phone! rock-a-bye baby!! muah-haa-haa...

i went school today fer two dumb lecturers again. i paid attention fer the first one but i slept throughout instrumentation lecture. think i'm damn lazy but i don't bother cos i hate that module. useless to me cos i can't seem to link anything right to it. believe me... you won't lyke studying the theory of machines.

library madness day...

i went to the library to complete my cell culture online assignment. it's tons and tons to do.

i'm totally not feeling good. i suck in everything. when someone loses their own confidence, they look damn ugly. this picture could tell it all.



haa. i got you. silly! it's just a spastic photo i took lo...


i'm thinking hard. who should it be? hrmp...


blargh... that's all fer the day...

just re-arranging the pics in my com and i realise i have soooo many pics to share. will try to put them up if 'wo3 xing1 xue4 lai2 chao2'

anyway, i realise my brother ish just as cute as others lo. wahaha...