mum told me i was in tears while asleep in the middle of the night. i guess i understand why... it's time fer me to isolate.

i'm gonna miss him badly fer-eva...

STRESS!! STRESS!! STRESS!! STRESS!! STRESS!! STRESS!! STRESS!! STRESS!! STRESS!! STRESS!! STRESS!! STRESS!! 

it's a little lonely to be alone in the middle of the night... somehow it feels lyke everyone ish gone but you're left standing alone... sobs. blargh...

i'm feeling so confondez now. i'm always thinking and thinking fer no reason. it's lyke a nightmare fer me during the night. perhaps a innocent child's smile will brighten my life today...

have a look at this link. it's a video of  panist...

http://www.gprime.net/video/blindfoldedmariopianist2.php

i'm such a bad girl today.... skip all 4 lectures today fer the first time of the semester finally.... went to school just fer  1 practical lesson... argh... this ish the first time i rush to school in madness. you won't be able imagine how fast i was going... it's really tiring to crawl up the np mountain. luckily i made it just in the fer my practical quiz. don't wanna get a big fat zer0 fer no reason.

some pics i took with my T630 when skipping lectures...! 



 

 



 

 

Disguise
by Lene Marlin
 
Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside
You will never measure up, to those people you
Must be strong, can't show them that you're weak
Have you ever told someone something
That's far from the truth
Let them know that you're okay
Just to make them stop
All the wondering, and questions they may have
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Have you ever seen your face,
In a mirror there's a smile
But inside you're just a mess,
You feel far from good
Need to hide, 'cos they'd never understand
Have you ever had this wish, of being
Somewhere else
To let go of your disguise, all your worries too
And from that moment, then you see things clear
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Are you waiting for the day
When your pain will disappear
When you know that it's not true
What they say about you
You could not care less about the things
Surrounding you
Ignoring all the voices from the walls

(this ish a nice song that describe my feelings now...)

my sales rep has been missing fer such a long time. damn! he still owes me my pay. and it's only 250 bucks. why ish everything dragging...

my lips getting drier each day... too much of air-con makes me sick...
 
thoughts lingering in my mind. but it's not lyke they had never been there...
 
my throat hurts with every sip of lemon tea i take. will it be better sooner or later?
 
what has been bothering my mind? anyone wonders?
 
i guess nobody and neither do i...
 
my spanish turning so spanglish... it's time fer slogging fer the test tomorrow...
 
ouch, my ulcer hurt so much just lyke the thrust of pain in my heart.
 
where's the trust i'm buliding so far? ish it imaginary or so true it seems?
 
(shit, this ish a chunk of bits and pieces. there's some text missing just lyke the cells in my brain.)

blogger ish improving, i guess...
 
anyway, here ar some pics i took in a week. too bored after all...
 

 

 

took during cell culture practical using my T630. so spastic...
 
school ish still a lil crazy... cos i still don't get what's everything about. gosh, think i need to buck up during this weekend.
 
i'm not treating anyone fair? am i?

i'm all messed up and mashed up!! but i'm still not thinking. shit, what am i doing? i'm so busy with school. quiz, test, lab reportssssssss!!

maybe my laughter hides everything...

went to zara after school today... where's the so called zara sale? hmmm... the price are not really that cut-off. and i don't see anything nice. maybe i don't have the mood to shop at all. walk around orchard, then went to search fer yan. she's working... chatted with her lots. i guess she could understand me well.

went to plaza singapura fer a movie... at first, wanna catch mean girls but the first seat rows were the ones only left. so end up watching the whole ten yards. it's a great comedy. hilarious and it really makes you laugh. at least that's a good thing fer me now. the dialogues were fantastically written plus the mexico accent makes the words sound even funnier...

(i guess i'm still not sure of what i'm doing. i don't wanna be so selfish... but i really don't know what to do... all i know ish my feelings ar all real.)

a bad night i went to curl upon the corner of my room again.
i'm not thinking... why? my mind can't seem to collect enough details to do anything.
do i worry too much? no, i'm not.

bad morning...

went to MOE to collect my o level certificate today... why ish it not combined? they use to combine the results together... this isn't fair.

everyone was busy fer the day... so i got ujin to accompany me... poor him. got to skip his lessons in order not to let me wait... so gentlemen of him. we caught windstruck at shaw house today. it's a good romance show. it's funny and romantic... i cried during the part the main actor died and the actress was moaning fer his awake. it's such a sad situation. makes me think of things i didn't want to. but there's one part which was meant to be sad. i didn't cried at first cos i thought it was a lil too fake. but i end up getting influence and tears came out again.

so tired of walking...

gonna rest soon. i just realise i have many lab reports to touch up!! gosh...

after my handphone went haywired fer so long... i decided to part with my beloved 7210... got a new temporary phone fer the time being. T630. another reason ish to change my handphone plan cos the old one i had was lyke 4 years ago...

so now you guys could just call me in and off anytime you lyke. cos it's free incoming call... the new plan by singtel ish not bad. ione plus. 25.20 bucks every month. 100 min outgoing, free incoming calls daily and 500 sms... quite a worthwhile plan. plus singtel provides many good services.

always searching fer a better phone...

went to catch spiderman 2 yesterday with a new friend of mine... to me? it's not very nice. cos there's too many talking... if you really concentrate and watch, you'll get real sleepy. but some parts ar funny. the stupid actions done to add humor into the movie.

but overall, not a bad day after all... entertainment and friends keeps me moving along...

argh... i'm feeling so tired. and i want to keep going out before school starts hectic!