yups. got it done. nothing fantastic.


`notice the cut off from a wishlist of 16 to now 12. i guess i just have to get them off.

feeling - yawning, delightful, expensive
listening to running - no doubt
weather - sorry, i don't know


i'm waiting so i might as well blog tonight. although, i'm real tired but no choice but to blog now. anyway, i've went fer my haircut today. it's short on my opinion. but i don't care anymore. actually wanted to highlight today. but can't put colour on this short hair of mine. guess, i should wait fer a few more months to come. gonna highlight this 'golden ash very light blonde' sounds so windy right. ahuh, dad gave me a digital cam of my own this time. but i don't really know fer what reason. it's real small and handy. think i'm gonna be fanatic in taking pics soon, since it's in such a convinient state.


actually i kinda give up hope on my adidas shoes. no money no shoes. i guess i should get a job now. and start earning. and stop depending too much on my parents. i don't wanna be a burden to them.


`zZz...

feeling - terrified, worried, difficult
listening to none
weather - peaceful


my school gonna start soon. and my set of modules ar so mix up. i mean, i think it's not an good idea fer me to learn the set of modules i land up in this semester. why the hard one first, argh. plus they were more fer helping me onto year 2. and if i were to get everything down this semester, by the next year. i'll forget most of the stuffs. and i'm lyke flying the plane without learning the foundation of flights. argh, what a crappy arrangement. without even learning my mircobiology, i need to jump to cell biology. guess i'm just unlucky. damn unlucky.


`miracles fer me, please.

feeling - hours ago, sad abt some attitude. now, praying.
listening to tv - sound waves vibrating towards my room
weather - stuffy


hmmm, fer this entry. i wanna thank god fer showering me the people around me. bless them, bless those who care, bless those who speak of truths, bless those acceptional ones who sunk. today i did nothing much but to slack around at home. last night wasn't really feeling that well, took my panadols and had a tight rest. harry potter ish out but i'm still waiting fer my cousin in Us. he promised to send me back one copy of it. it's not that i don't wanna lay my expenses on it. it's just that my cousin had specially ordered a copy a few months ago in Us.


`don't hide yur feelings.

feeling - sleepy, grounded
listening to clay aiken - unchained melody
weather - cold, drewy


i've got back from my shopping spree not long ago. really tired from the walking and trying. i'm happy with what i've purchased today. got a nice beads/brown bracelet, a nice brown/milky 3 quarter pants and a black sleveless top. i might be getting back to topshop at wistma to get this lovely heart shape sea-shell sort of necklace. all in all, i ended up grounded by mum from spending money on clothes again. saddening. anyway, i went out with xiaowen today, my best and only buddy from primary school days. we sprinkle around town here and there, back and forth. she just kept searching clothes fer his guy, that's all. after a long afternoon, we went to this teppanyaki + steamboat buffet restuarant at cineleisure fer dinner. we ate fer a maximum of 2 hours. can't believe it, gosh. but her appetite was real big as compared to mine. my stomach was darn heavy after even an hour or so. after the main meal, we then continued another hour there fer our ice-cream. cool, pouring the liquid over the whole circle of silver plate, waiting fer it to solidify. not a bad place to dine in after all.


`so casual, so foreign

feeling - icy, freezy
listening to elva + hu yan bing - jing xing shi
weather - hell the peeps, my windows ar close.


i'm freezing in my small privacy which means my room. 26 degress and yet i can't take it. haa. gosh, today ish a tiring day. went searching a new look fer my blog and yeah, i got it. happy with it too. cycling and running around my neighbourhood just now. my brother keeps dragging my way thru. i can't seem to surpass him. not becos i was lousy, cos' he's blocking! great exercise and i'm glad i'll be losing some weight soon! hopefully, it happens. haa.


`brain cells killed in the battle.

feeling - wonderful, congrats
listening to michelle branch - here to me
weather - cooling, cloudy


swaying with the music,
waiting fer the time to come.
i'm gonna head out,
in my free will.
cycling around my hood.
the breeze gonna crystalise me,
my face, my lips, my heart,
just lyke the way you did.


the song i'm listening now ish sweet. i love the mystical background.


`Cristal Amis = Crystal Friends

heloo guys, i've change a new template. but somehow there might be a little faulty areas. but please let me know your comments and any suggestions will do well too. thanks fer all that. i need a confirmation fer my effort, although this template wasn't design by me. but nonetheless the text here ar. hee.


`all in french.

hmmm, it has been a long time since i last cycled. haa, it was damn a mess cycling at west coast park. i didn't kept my balance all the time and was losing all of it while cycling. i even bang my way thru the plants and nearly hit one of the trees. haa. gosh, you people would be laughing your hell out if you were to saw that happening. anyway, the 4e1 gathering on saturday was overall cool. i mean, it isn't that fantastic but it brought memories back. somehow it's still the same gangs hanging around but there was fun and laughter everywhere. lingering my thoughts over the days we used to joke and play in class. argh, i miss them. nonetheless, no one has change much. maybe there will be in years to go. just wanna let all my classmates know that i'll remember most of them, and they ar part of my most important stage of life. get going people, i wish you all best of lucks.


just came back from cycling not long. now stuck into it. love cycling. melting soon, gonna cycle everyday from now onwards.


`nostalgic

upload some bbq photos up. er, further details i'll let ya people know later. lazy to blog at the moment.


`muacks.

thursday-
went to ngee ann convention day in the early morning. only told me something that it doesn't pays to be early in such occasion. i overslept. it's been a long time since i've ran around my home. but nonetheless, i was still late. anyway, the convention was what it was suppose to be. boring and boring. nothing much, went home after the whole thing. after that attended my jc gathering at marina south. it's alright, nothing fantastic. but it's kinda nice to meet most of them. they did kite flying the whole afternoon whereas i reach there later and didn't flew any. after all this, went fer bbq cum steamboat. er, people please don't go to this store 'chong pang' to waste your money. the food sucks, i mean food that ar need fer such bbq, ain't many. and too many cooked food.


feeling - nothing, nothing, nothing.


`lazy. dried

yeah baby... i've went out with adeline today. and i did not went home empty handed. finally, i've got my haversack! those military khakis coloured kinda. love it. plus i got it at a low price which i myself thought it was quite worth it. comparing with the one i bought last year at bukit panjang plaza, i think this haversack rocks. the one i bought last year was lyke twice the price of this. argh, makes me wanna tell everyone that the shop cheated my money. haa. anyway, none a bother. we went bugis today, took pics. 'ahuh, damn white'. this machine ish definitely suitable fer those who always love to bleach their skin white. cos' there's this function to choose between normal, white and super white. i look alright in that pic, somehow i've forgotten how to electrify the camera, just hate it cos' it's too white. adel look great in there. haa. right? check it out at my photos section.


`where ish heaven?
`it's right beside you when u're with yur love one.

i'm idling my way thru the night. now listening to my evanescence cd. gosh, the atmosphere in my privacy ish real sorrowful. taking over me ish a melancholic song with a fantastic starting melody. i remembered that the first song i heard from evanescence was bring me to life. somehow i didn't got much attracted to it, until my immortal came out.


i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone


these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase


love this part of my immortal. and out of the sudden, one day on my way to work, i heard it over the radio. somehow that period of my life was kinda down. as in a number of disconsolate stuffs had happened to me at that particular moment. the song did implicated my part of loneliness. and boom. i took a break from work and got the cd right away. everyday on my way to work, i'll keep listening. and days and days of work pass thru, i didn't really bothered about any other stuffs of my life. if you people wanna know what has happenned, try this link.


had change a new name fer this blog. and title too. by the way, votre sourire charme means your smile charms.


`nostalgic

Taking Over Me


you don't remember me but i remember you
i lie awake and try so hard not to think of you
but who can decide what they dream?
and dream i do...


i believe in you
i'll give up everything just to find you
i have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me


have you forgotten all i know
and all we had?
you saw me mourning my love for you
and touched my hand
i knew you loved me then


i believe in you
i'll give up everything just to find you
i have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me


i look in the mirror and see your face
if i look deep enough
so many things inside that are just like you are taking over


`love this song by evanescence, especially the part in italic.

i'm beginning to feel quite restricted to stuffs. i somehow have this feeling that i can't express out. it's lyke something that i would wish to paint out. something that only with the swift of the brushes could actually supress out. haa, guess i'm just thinking blissfully.


really wish to continue with my flute business. it's been a long time since i touch them. man, i hope my skills ar not flawed. somehow playing the flute lets me feel the freedom. the freedom to create something soothing to ears. i still can't forget the days and the 'circle of life' tune. wow, those ar real memories.


`we do not fear or flinch.

i've caught ju-on last night. argh... haa. to my opinion, i suggest you people rather to miss it. but if you ar really lyke those timid and imaginary kinda of person, then go catch it. man, it's damn funny. it's lyke the ring 2. a lady starts crawling and crawling. first look, it might scare the hell out of you with it's mysterious background music. but the duration of it was darn too long. until it makes everyone wanna laugh. you wouldn't really understand the story outline. but gosh, that's what a japanese horror show normally ar. the boy ish cuter than scarier. ahuh, i think the best part ish the story of the school girls. first, they look pretty enough to attract you guys. second, that particular part was the most frightening one.


kkays. i'm just telling with my eyes half-closed. i'll rate it 3 stars out of 5.


`admitted. without realisation.

the hit.
the collision.
the destruct.
ouch.
the signs it shows.
the blood it drips.
argh.


swollen.
pain unleased.
to recover?
how long?
words tuck in mouth.
unable to tell.


`blarghhh...

er, i guess people ar getting bored to hearing my slacking at home. i'm gonna be quite occupied next week so stay tuned fer some 'stories' of my life. anyway, i've decided to write an essay each week to build up my language skills. i'll post them up here and hope by the time you guys could grade them up fer me. but a warning, it's gonna be quite boring after all, with all the limited language i have and my flunk grade from the o's.


hmmm, guess i'm gonna be home today too. actually i've thought of who to date out but i guess i'm not going to put it in action. i mean i've never tried and never want to. how i wish i'm working right now. i need my laptop. and at least working can put me away from everything. i don't need to wonder why am i slacking at home and why am i not out. and there ar much more excuses to tell myself. blarghhh......


`insecure?

hmmm, it's been a long time since i last blog about my daily stuffs. well, as life goes on these days, nothing ish much happening. i mean or let's say, i'm slacking a big hell lot. haa. been hook up to cantonese songs and oldies these days. i'm ashing and becoming an antique! hee.


went to this complusory safety talk in np this tuesday. man, it was all crap. plus the test was an idiot proof one. you people should know what it means. yeah, got there alone. i think i was if not counting the guy i met from pj. but anyway i went to chat with this girl beside me while having a long stroll around the school. yups, she's quiet and damn shock that i approached her. but nonetheless, i got a new partner. and creeps..... i found out most biomedical science girls ar..... the typical kind of homegrown girl. kkays. i mean they ar lyke those who wanna attract the attention of guys but to me? they failed to do so. haa. met this foolish load of guys too. they were sort of in the same group with me. don't say i'm thick skin, but they just kept their eyeballs swirling around me at times. then, i was having my lunch (forced to), sitting at one of the stairs. i was busy smsing. yeah, and they sat right behind me. i hope they didn't did it on purpose. i started to heard them talking about a girl. heard them guessing this girl age and blah blah blah. to me, i didn't thought much. until then one of them said, she ish busy smsing. must be smsing her boyfriend. so no chance of anything. gosh, i did look around. but every girl infront of me ish busy eating.


anyway, i've decided not the attend those FOC (camps). i guess i'm too lazy? or i've been through it, it's kinda fun. but after seeing how the people played around during the safety talk thing. everything just ran off my mind. peeps, i don't wanna talk about it. guess just have to wait fer the semester to start.


ahuh, yesterday went town. i caught finding the nemo. it's cute and hilarious. can't stop laughing. i really admire those people creating the vocal of those animated characters. darn, they ar real professional. how could they actually make it sound so real? haa. i love the part where dory starting speaking 'whale language'. and that mine? mine? mine? mine? mine? haa. i guess you people should really watch it. cool and entertaining one. i'll give it 4 out of 5 stars. yups, and all that under the ocean thing, beautiful and amazing.


be back later fer more. and yups. had uploaded some childhood pictures of mine. you people can view it. hmmm, and comment kkays? haa. new photos will be arriving next week. just gonna get my negatives wash next week. my digital camera ish lyke been occupied by my dad and his friends. so i've only gonna keep using this film thing. but i still prefer them. hee, i don't know why.


`once in an annum.

found this in chicken soup of teenage soul 2. had always lyke this certain entry in it. so since i've got lyke nothing to blog. i chose this.


INSIDE


bottled up inside
are the words i never said,
the feelings that i hide,
the lines you never read.


you can see it in my eyes,
read it on my face:
trapped inside are lies
of the past i can't replace.


with memories that linger --
won't seem to go away.
why can't i be happier?
today's a brand-new-day.


yesterdays are over,
even though the hurting's not.
nothing lasts forever,
i must cherish what i've got.


don't take my love for granted,
for soon it will be gone --
all you ever wanted
of the love you thought you'd won.


the hurt i'm feeling now
won't disappear overnight,
but someway, somehow,
everything will turn out all right.


no more wishing for the past.
it wasn't meant to be.
it didn't seem to last,
so i have to set him free.


`those in italic ar my favourite.

sorry guys. just can't seem to think of anything to blog. and i'm lazy!!


`if guilts doesn't conquer you, why bother to defend fer yourself?

i just wanna shout out. i hate people copying my style of language. those should know who they ar. i mean, please. where's yur soul? kkays. if you're close with me, i don't mind at all. but the problem ish. ar you?

hmmm, i've just finish editing my friend's blog. i feel lyke a genius. muacks to myself. anyway, although it's nothing great but it's far enough fer a idiot lyke me in such stuffs. i've got nothing much to blog and in fact i'm real lazy. haa. don't complain. i'll be back tomorrow. i promise.


`should i regret or rejoice?
`i believe if things were meant to be, it'll be.
`haa. kkays. so crappy.
`argh...